Syraxius's Lair

2008-06-08T21:33:00.744+08:00

6 Feb - Go to my new blog, okay?

Clicky me here

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It's 24/01/2012

Went out yesterday, the day before, and the day before that.

Had a lot of fun.

4 days from Jan's birthday, but I'm flying off soon to Brunei.

I'm in EOCC. Wow, I don't know what's ahead.

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Today is 20/12/2012

Reality Check again:
I'm in OCS, typing on the OCS laptop
I just need 2.4 now
That Jan zzz...
Anyway I'm a horny pcc kia.

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Reality check:
-I'm in NS, and I want to be in OCS
-I need to pull up my socks for chinups, situps and 2.4.
-I'm saving up money to get that handbag for Jan
-Jan doesn't like me anymore but I'll still save up anyway

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Suddenly I was thinking... If I two weeks no PCC it's okay, because what is 2 weeks when I never PCC for 3 months already... But what about Wilson? HAHAHA!!!

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8 June, Time: Later on, lol. Come to think of it, it seems like you can tell me all sorts of touching stuff, but it's so difficult to make you say ily or even a imy anymore :( That would be my next goal~ HAHA.

But first, I needa get my ass into and out of camp first. See you when I'm out. Miss me when you're not busy, okay? HAHAHA!

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8 June, Time: Like 535am. OMG I slept 3 hours.

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7 June. It's like after today, I can't try anymore. I hope you be a good girl, okay?

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I forgot something when I woke up. I forgot who I am. I forgot who am I to you.

I just want you to think of me. I just want you to ask me how my day went. But seriously I know you don't even care?

I fucking love you, and you don't even know.

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30 May 2011. I just got $295 this morning, now I'm left with $45, for next month. LOL. It's not even June yet. Holy. Then again, I don't need the cash if I don't have you anyway, so there, makes me feel better.

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You're right. I don't know your friends, and sometimes I wonder if I know you at all. You're so mean sometimes.

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20 May 2011. 4:01am. Dear Lord, I'm kind of going mad now. I can't sleep and I drenched my pillows with water from my eyes. Can You tell me what is this I'm feeling in my heart? Is this how a healing heart feels, or am I just losing my mind?

I have no more spending power. I have $12 in my wallet, and $8 in my bank which I can't draw. I can no longer make plans. Besides, I have 6 trips left in my EZ-Link card. There's nothing I can do right now, except to pray, and to watch him take her away.

Lord, if You believe that she'll be happier with him, then help me get over it. If not, may You grant me patience, because I will be waiting; waiting for the day she'll need me again; waiting for the day I can be there for her; waiting for the day she sees my heart.

Amen.

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19 May 2011. My heart broke again. I'm sorry it breaks so easily. But I'm trying my best to fix it now, so that I can give it to you again. No matter how my heart breaks, I'll always fix it, and I'll always give it to you, because I believe that one day, you will learn to keep it.

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Hello. 16 May 2011. 12PM. I had too much to drink in the afternoon. But actually, it's just three and a half mugs of Vodka and one mug of Yomeishu, nothing much.

Let's talk about life.

I am still in love with this girl called Jan. How do I know it's not just lust? Well, when I think of her, I think of holding her hands, taking strolls in the park, leaving footprints at the beach, watching the sunset together, whispering words of love to her, sending her back to her doorsteps, and kissing her goodbye.

I don't know how things ended up this way. Or maybe, I know, but I'm in denial. I don't know how she could end up discredit all my actions to lust? I really just want to love her, I don't want to fuck her. I made a mistake that day, I'm really a good guy. I just want to be there for her, to protect her. Is that so difficult?

Trust me if I'm actually drunk right now I wouldn't be able to type, right?

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I'm mending my heart now. I'm mending it so that I can give it to you again. I'll let you break it again, I don't mind.

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Lord, a few weeks ago, I prayed that You let her understand. On 12.54PM, she proved to me that it wasn't answered. With my last glimpse of hope, if You are listening in right now, I pray with a desperate heart that You answer that prayer, right now. Amen.

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11:52AM. One last message, then I'll wait. I'm here. I'll always wait.

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May 9, 6AM.

Beddy time. Good night :) It's not like I'm very happy right now. In fact I'm disappointed in you. Deep down in my heart, I bled. But deep down there, I believe that everything's going to be alright for you. I'm no sweet talker, but I'm here, Jan, and I'll stand by you.

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May 8/9, 1AM.

I won't give up on you, till you ask me to. Whatever happens from now till then, I will always forgive you. I've carved a reservation for you in my heart. Why? Because I'm unconditional.

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Wow, what a threat. "Back off and stay away from her already". Am I supposed to obey that? Well, can someone give this big gentleman over here a big round of applause? *clap clap*

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It's May 7. 7am. I'm extremely sleepy, but something on that roof changed me. In the midst of the singing I found small answers to big questions. I realized that my heart is cold, just like it has always been: a heart of stone.

I'm not a stupid person. Another lie, and another piece to the equation, but I would still like to forgive you. You're still young, and you don't know what you're doing. Everyone loves having fun, right?

Like I said before, you're not bad enough to hurt me. If you were afraid that I would get hurt, then I would have gotten hurt the minute I figured things out weeks ago.

If you think you're a complicated species, welcome to my jungle.

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Apricot and Cream
Belgian Chocolate
Cappuccino Truffle
Choc choc chip
Chocolate
Chocolate midnight cookies
Coffee
Cookies and Chocolate
Cookies and Cream
Dark Chocolate Orange
Green Tea
Lemon Sorbet
Macadamia Nut
Mango and Passion Fruit
Mango Sorbet
Raspberry Sorbet
Rum Raisin
Strawberry
Strawberry Cheesecake
Summer Berries and Cream
Tiramisu
Vanilla
Vanilla Caramel Brownie

Gullible fool~ :)

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Exceptional programmers are people who can see things as a whole. Programmers are people who "figure things out". I am confident that I've figured out enough. But I would like to forgive you.

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I have to realize that it's all my retribution.

It's the taste of my own medicine.

Now I just plead of You Lord, to grant me patience.

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Wake me up, when it's 5am~

(Read it in the Wake Me Up When September Ends tune.)

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2 May, 2011, 7am. Reject me in the face, or don't reject me at all. I don't like it when people beat around the bush just to get a message across. It makes me feel that you don't think I'm strong enough to take the truth.

Back to the jog. Damn long way to go, and I'm sleepy. Maybe I'll run back halfway, lol.

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Dear Lord, thank You. Amen.

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I'm stupid but not so stupid la please.

But than again, I gave away yet another pawn. Good game for me?

I give up, I fold, I concede defeat :)

It's going nowhere. I'm not going to try. I'm passive.

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Thank you Lord. I found myself today when I was running.

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Sigh what have I done?

I always give away my pawn too easily, and now I just did it again.

Now I have no standing in the playing field. =/

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Dear Lord, You didn't make me get over it. So does it mean You're helping me attain my desires? I wonder.

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When I wake up at 5am, and my phone's still empty, I'll have to skip work; because then I'll realize that I need a break.

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26 April 2011, Midnight. How I wish a someone would text me right now :) I mean, she forgot to text me last night before she slept =/ Oh dear.

Dear Lord, I thank you for bestowing upon me people who understand me from inside; People who can talk to me heart to heart; People who untie my ribbon the right way; People who truly love me.

I am sorry for betraying people all the time. I am sorry for the things I say to hurt people. I am sorry for the being insensitive to the feelings of people. I'm sorry for leaving people nowhere to go. I'm sorry for being so selfish. I'm sorry.

I pray that you could help me attain my desires. If not, then may You help me get over it. This is my only request today. I pray all these in the name of Christ, Jesus, Amen.

I cry often. I don't cry out loud. I cry in my heart. I cry not because I'm sad, but because I'm touched. I'm touched at the fact that I'm not forgotten. I'm touched at the fact that I'm forgiven. I'm touched because you've always been here, always waiting, always. Thank you, if you think this is you.

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Dear God, You left me clues today. Alot of clues. Thank You for making the decision for me.

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Weird, because when I read back at my previous messages before Week 0, I'm pretty sure I lost a whole lot of humor. =/ I mean, dude, I laughed at my older messages HAHAHA

Tsk, tsk, tsk, Kelvin

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25 April 11, 9:37PM~

I made that promise, and I can't break promises. Even if I didn't make that promise, I'll still have to be there for her. But how should I go about doing it? Maybe a bit of retail therapy would help? I guess I can do that for her.

I have just a month left. After that, I'm on my own. I have to get so much loose ends tied. There are still so many things I haven't done. This is the last holiday I have, and life would never be the same.

In slightly more than a month's time, Kelvin as you know him would die. Someone else would return, and I'm not sure if he's better.

Dear Father, I pray today for my dear friend J. Look into her heart, and feel her sincerity. I pray that You would forgive her sins, and protect her like Your child. May You rejoice her return just as the Father would for his prodigal child; she is back in Your house.

May J be Your hose of salvation. I pray that the Holy Spirit flow through her, flushing away all that's impure. I pray that You would use her to once again shower salvation upon the world.

Dear Father, I thank You for changing me over the last few days. I pray that You would continue to mold me into your likeness. Like I've always prayed: May You bless my mum, for blessing her would bless me. All these I pray in the name of Christ, Jesus, Amen!

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Reporting in from LAN.

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24 April 2011, 11:55PM. Everyone around me is being so secretive. SO secretive. It's so hard to trust anyone today. It seems that everyone has something to keep from me. Everyone, from you, to you, and you.

Let me try praying:

Dear Lord, please grant me your Holy Vision that I may see the truth behind all things. Be it through personal confessions or first-hand witnessing, I pray for a world of transparency where I can learn to trust again.

Dear Father, may you allow me the wisdom to handle things appropriately. I am naive, young, and foolish, and I would like to stay this way as long as You are here to bring me out of harm's way.

When tomorrow comes, I pray that it would be a greater day than today. May all these be granted in the name of Christ Jesus our Lord, Amen!

P.S. Please teach me to dance well. Everyday I'm Shuffling, so I may... Impress myself?

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Sunday, 24 April, 3:13PM. I'm about to dye my hair... Again. This is the first hairdye I'm getting for myself, so weeee! (The other one was second hand from my sis because she can't finish it lol)

So excited to begin mixing the hairdye solution (rofl, I sound like a mountain tortoise =/)

My boss just bought me a new phone, a GT-E1055T for my NS. He's always so thoughtful isn't he?

I don't know if I want to make an exchange at my shop as although it does have an FM function, there's no native 3.5mm port =/.

Did I mention, I feel so much better today. Even though I still have the same fever, the same flu, I somehow feel more at peace.

I want to begin building my life back. I mean, I've gotten over Jessie (LX's fake English name). I'm moving on. Even though I like older girls, I also like younger girls who are more mature than me. They give me some sort of warmth that no kiddy bitch can provide.

Just like how it was like 3 years ago, I'll end my post with a prayer:

Dear God, I thank you for the day today. I'm beginning to see the world in a better light, and people are beginning to in turn see me shine once again. May the Holy Spirit flow through me, and I in turn do your Will.

You are my source, and my salvation, nothing compares to you. I pray that you would be the source, and salvation for my dear friend J. Help her fulfill her desires to quit clubbing. May you guide her as you've guided me to be the person she used to be.

I also pray that you allow me to love with a pure heart. He who loves is loved. Teach me to love a person for who a person is, and not what a person is physically; for that love is love that blesses. That love is a love that can be felt. That love is real.

Although I no longer belong to a church, I pray that you make me an extension of You in your church with no walls. May my prayers be answered. All these I pray in the name of Christ, Jesus, Amen.

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It's weird how much better 3 hours can make me feel. Maybe that prayer's answered.

Now, Kelvin, forget about the "who texts who first" crap, and remember the "be there for her" promise.

It's almost 7 and I'm having beakfast with my mum. It feels great. I feel so free of worries.

Psychological or divine I do not know.

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I finally figured out what I'm missing. What's been making me so depressed. I lost something, and now I realized. I Thank You for the answer. Amen.

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It's 2AM, same day. I can't sleep, but I'm feeling much more mature already. I've made up my mind. When I wake up later at 5AM, let me be that Kelvin on April the 4th. That's the Kelvin that I like myself, and I believe that's the Kelvin others would like.

Tomorrow, for God, I will cleanse myself from impure thoughts and actions. The last time I had a daily quiet time with You was a long time ago, but I pray in the name of Jesus that I be cleansed. May Your word guide me through in the days to come as I seek comfort in Your wisdom. May I no longer think about fornication. May I be Kelvin on the 4th of April. Amen.

Now, PS: Please dear God, please guide me for I am desperate. I sincerely believe it will work. Finally, allow me to sleep.

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It's 24 April, 12.24AM. This is the first timestamp I've put in my blog since the postcount froze.

Whenever I have no friends, I turn to my blog. Yes that's right.

How about this? If Jan Mak Wenling does not message me tomorrow, I'd just not message her forever until she does. That should be hard to get enough.

I mean, I have a serious fever (38.8º anyone?), I just got a rough week, and I am feeling rather depressed at the moment anyway. I have the rights to say whatever shit I want until I feel better. (All hail insensitivity!)

What's keeping me from sleeping you ask? I actually think a lot. It's as if I've regressed back to when I was in secondary school. I think of D, R, G1, M, G2, A. I thought I've let go of them. I ought to have let them go by now. Well of course. I'm just troubled about LX and J now.

Alright, this is childish enough.

Lets talk about what I feel inside. I feel messed up, like my heart's just been gutted out and replaced the wrong side round.

As you guys know, or rather, as I know it for myself, I have some really high expectations for a girlfriend, that's why I haven't been able to find anything that floats my boat for the last 4 years.

I don't really know what I'm feeling right now. This Jan is really such a weird person, it's as if she's a schizophrenic. She's such a bad girl (club, etc.), which fulfills my bad girl criteria, yet inside she's such a good girl (church, etc.), which fulfills my good girl criteria. That's just perfect, hmm.

So the question is, what should I strive to be? And actually, what am I really? I can't even answer that question. If I'd choose, I'd probably choose to be good. I mean, I'm good all along. Yes, that's it, I want to be good.

I mean, why didn't I masturbate for a month right? I, of course, wish to change for the better. That's why I no longer use vulgarities freely - and that's for the second year now.

So here I am. I'm a good person with lots of talents that no one appreciates sadly. My IQ of 143 (Mental Age of 30.03 years old) and EQ of 132 (Maturity Age of 27.72 years old) is not showing very much. I try too hard to impress everyone around me; I end up impressing nothing. I'm so greedy I tend to end up with nothing in life.

What should I do really? I don't know. It's like I fight an internal battle everyday, and the aftermath shows externally. People around me start to think I'm crazy.

I don't know what she likes (good or naughty guys). I don't know her well enough I guess. How do I get close to her? That's a battle for me to fight tomorrow. Get some rest Kelvin, I hope you become normal tomorrow. I mean, seriously, don't go spamming that Yomeishu again, because it'll just give you a badly painful erection. I hope, Kelvin, that you're still that responsible person I trust wholeheartedly.

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When the glitter falls, look where are you now?

Like I said, you're going to be left with nothing.

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Hihi~ You are confusing my heart :S.

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You make me all hot inside, then you become all cold. The way you keep me around is really working.

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Why don't you allow me to let you go?
Why do you bother keeping me around?
Why didn't you tell me that you didn't like me too?
Do you perhaps feel that something is possible between us?

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I've lost so much recently that I've become numb to the agony. It seems I've been desensitized and I no longer feel. The idea of losing more does not worry me. I am but a husk.

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I don't know what I'm getting myself into this time~

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我不知道你是否注意到...你是我的天使...

謝謝...

Thanks for being you. You're so refreshingly unique. You surprise me.

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My expectations of myself are too high; that's why I get disappointed and depressed so often.

I also tend to shy away from the world every time I get involved in a project; probably because that's when I realize how complicated the world is.

I wonder how much longer I'll last in this world.

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Just watched The King's Speech...

It takes leadership to confront a nation's fear. It takes friendship to conquer your own.

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And while I was surfing the IMDB boards, I came across this quote...
"Procrastination fools you into thinking you succeed merely by not failing." El_DustinD

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Black Swan

Thomas Leroy: Nina, what did you do?
Nina: I felt it. Perfect. I was perfect.

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Second movie of the day~ Despicable Me~

~cyclone1164 Aug 30, 2010
What a touching scene! When Gru kisses Agnes and Edith goodnight I started to cry. When Grus leans over to kiss Margo and she jumps up and says, "I love you!" I cried harder! Then when Gru says, "I love you, too" I just bawled! What an amazing movie!

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All I can say is... Wow~

Rapunzel: I've been looking out of a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what I might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it's not everything I dreamed it would be?

Flynn Rider: It will be.

Rapunzel: And what if it is? What do I do then?

Flynn Rider: Well,that's the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.

~What a movie Tangled is...

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Chinese New Year. The last time I'm going to R's house. She shifted.

Well here's the view from there. It never gets old. Back then I took a few shots from here with my K750i, then with my 5800, and now with my Desire HD.

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I can't let go, I really can't.

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I think I'm messing up my life. I need to take a step back and look at where I am now. The sentence, "You mess up these 2 weeks and you regret for the next 30 years", really woke me up. I've already spent so much time on the competition, why give up now? I don't know, I need to clear my mind.

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I wish to create something like this:
0) For modularity, create a packet sending function that sends packets based on an array of bytes or a colon delimited char*.
1) Create an APR suite to perform MITM between two hosts (WINPCAP-based Routing, not Windows Routing, so that I can have more control.)
2) DNS spoofing to actively reply to any incoming DNS requests with a fake authoritative reply.

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I had a weird dream about an average-looking girl. I can't remember the exact details, but I ended up at the back of my dad's van. We laid on our backs and we kissed, and my dad appeared and we had to stop.

Then she said we haven't fulfilled what we need to do so she can't go. Then I somehow thought it was something related to kissing and WireShark with results read out by a computer.

Then it flashed to a scene when my mum asked me something about my sister's boyfriend (WTF). Then she asked, "What about you?" (She said "你呢？"). I just replied "She's the one you saw that day" (I said exactly, "那一天的那个lor.") and she said something about her being another nationality (not something bad).

Throughout the dream I was reminded that I needed to complete a task related to kissing and voice-enabled WireShark.

Afterwards, she told me that she had created a "loop" (the first definition in my head was a routing loop, but I guess it's not). She said she did not expect to travel to India and China and (a few other countries and) end up falling in love here, so it created a "loop".

I turned my head to look at my computer. I had to match packets, one with FFFFFF (can't remember how many) at the end (instead of beginning as in WOL). When I turned back, she disappeared and there was a furry animal (a rabbit or something) in her place. I caressed it and felt really depressed.

When I woke up, I wanted to cry again like last week.

Am I trapped in R again? I thought I got over it, I really did.

I guess every time I don't answer calls, it reminds me of the times back then.

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I had a weird dream about a pretty girl whom I was somehow supposed to kill. From the circumstantial information, she seemed to be very close to me. I had a rifle to her face and she gave me one last smile, looked to the horizon and opened her mouth before I pulled the trigger. After shooting her, I turned and walked away for a while. When I came back and I asked my mum if she was dead. My mum replied that she was and I cried and said in Mandarin, "Mummy, I am very sad again". (I said exactly, "妈咪,我又很伤心了").

When I woke up, I felt like I was on the verge of crying out loud.

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I just got a new keyboard. It's the Logitech Ultra-Flat. It's really pleasant to type on and its matrix supports even DJ Max 8B in the normal position (ASDFJKL: with Space).

I'm planning to get Filco Masjestouch or Steelkeys 7G soon. Most mechanical keyboards are NKRO (n-Key Rollover). But it's going to be like $200 so I'll have to save.

I'll have to write my Major Project Periodical Report soon. It's like ever since I stopped creating articles in BasicDraft, my life has been really boring and meaningless lol.

I should start researching again.

This keyboard's layout sucks, I'll have to get used to it. The keyboard is really small even though it has full-sized keys but the keys are all crammed together into a square box.

Lots of birthdays recently.

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Tell me, what would you do if your life is a facade; a facade you're forced to cower behind?

What would you do if the glory you live in came from a false victory; a victory you refuse to acknowledge?

Are are you the greatest liar not; a liar that fools the self?

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Here's my new baby:
3) Gigabyte P55A-UD3 + i5 760 ~ $461
4) Kingston DDR3 4GB * 1 ~ $105

Also bought:
2) USB Cable ~ $6
5) Cheap Dynamic Microphone ~ $11
6) Sandisk Cruzer Blade 8GB ~ $18

Now I need:
1) A pair of running shoes
2) Kingston DDR3 4GB * 1 ~ $105 (Another one)
3) A nice bag

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Okay I bought this instead:
1) Gigabyte 880GM-USB3 + X4 640 ~ $285

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My buy list~!

1) Gigabyte GA-G41M-Combo + E5700 ~ $250
2) Linksys WUSB54GC ~ $40
3) Gigabyte P55A-UD3 + i5 760 ~ $470
4) Corsair XMS DDR3 2GB * 2 ~ $140

Hmm $900 :(

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Sometimes, the more you think, the less you understand.

The less effort you put in, the more you reap.

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What is it? It's a lab test.

Who am I up against? Myself.

What am I doing? Doing what I love.

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Do not, for once, turn the defense into offense. You don't have to bring yourself to his level. You have nothing to lose by letting him go.

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When I talk, I deliver.

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Directed focus.

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The only thing that can be conclusively drawn from a blog is a person's vocabulary (or lack thereof).

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Wilson really touched me. (If you thought otherwise, I really meant emotionally.)

I didn't expect anyone to treat group projects with the same respect and care as me. It's 2:55AM now and I can't sleep. Too much on my mind for me to handle.

I just SMS'ed him and he said he's doing the final tests before the presentation scheduled at 9AM. I thought I'm the only one foolish enough to do something like this.

A leader is one who is willing to sacrifice for the benefit of others. Such is also a person who performs his trade with passion.

If you're looking for a real leader, look no further: This guy named Wilson fits the job description well.

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Back in St Patrick's, Mr Ho Chee Wai called me a vulgar animal almost every literature lesson.

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Mr Tan is one of the most sincere teacher I've ever talked to in school.

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Thanks for the new perspective Jensen. You really gave me the motivation to carry on :) If there's one thing I'm really thankful for, I thank God for putting people like you around! :)

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Here's something to ponder:
How deep is the connection between being merciless and being successful? Are you a successful person in life? If not, is it because you always show mercy to people who in turn make you their stepping stone to success?

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Everything is scientific; even emotions are. The day you you understand is the day you realize that emotion is an illusion that impairs your intelligence. You wield your emotions, not the other way round.

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I'm hoping for a distinction rofl.

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Two more subscribers and I'll hit 50 haha, finally. I've got more subscribers in one week than I had in 2 years, damn.

Anyway, now that PCSX2 is more well-developed, I can finally run Kingdom Hearts 2. Yay :)

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I want to fully grasp the musical score concepts so I can write down the tunes I've been hearing in my head. Now that I can't write music on sheets, I'll have to resort to humming and recording them down so I'll be able to develop them and turn them into real pieces when I get better.

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A: This and this and this
B: No no no, that and that and that
A: That and that and that
B: No no no, this and this and this
A: This and this and this
B: STFU BITCH

(Adapted from someone's sig, rofl random.)

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Here's the 4 movies I watched today:
1) Avatar
2) Law Abiding Citizen
3) Invictus
4) Family Guy

Avatar was really a blast. I don't know why's whining about the story. The story was great man! It was so lovely and touching at times. Besides, Na'vis are hot! This movie really deserves to win something, it's like one of the better movies I've watched this year! Gets a 9/10 from me :)

Law Abiding Citizen puts you in the middle of a struggle between good and evil. Sounds boring? No, it actually exceeded my expectations. At times you don't know if you want to side the killer or the lawyer because the movie somehow makes you sympathize with the killer. One intense hell of a show, deserving of a 8.5/10 :)

Invictus depicts the life of Nelson Mandela, the former president of South Africa. It has a very hardwarming story, but I find it hard to relate to it because I'm neither a fan of (anti-)racism, politics or rugby. Still, I find it quite sweet, and Morgan Freeman acts really well. It gets a 8/10 from me :)

Family Guy... It's not very good :( Not because the movie was poorly written, but because the jokes are all American and most of the characters they make fun of are pretty foreign. Still, the Star Wars theme and a few scenes are quite funny so it gets a 7/10 :)

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LOL before Final Fantasy vids, YouTube showed 97% male and 3% female for demographics statistics. Now, it's 80% male 20% female. LOL so I guess girls aren't interested in Call of Duty, O2 Jam and DJ Max eh? Hahaha...

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I've reached 200k video views for my uploads :) Woopee! The best time to upload videos is in the evening when everyone's online in FaceBook so they can give your view count and comments an initial boost through the YouTube-Facebook application.

Oh by the way, here's the settings I used for YouTube to recognize the video as HD:
Minimum 1280x720 resolution at 16:9 aspect ratio. H.264/Advanced Video Codec at 29.97FPS with lossless context-adaptive binary arithmetic coding (profile Main level 4) at 4 reference frames. MPEG Layer-4 container and Advanced Audio Codec LC. Video is at 1200kbps while audio is at 160kbps VBR. DirectShow recode through DXVA.

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"Forget about the past"? Is that an Indian's way of apologizing? Thank God I'm a nice person because I gladly accept :)

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Great :)

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Here's how I'd rate the movies in order:
1) Inglourious Basterds
2) Zombieland
3) Transformers 2
4) Planet 51
5) G-Force

Inglourious Basterds didn't turn out the way I thought it would be. It sounded like some shit ass comedy but it was a pretty intense show. I'd give it a 8.5/10 and is one of the best movies I've watched this year. By the way, Shosanna's eyes are so beautiful she makes my heart pound.

Zombieland caught me by surprise as well. Who knew a zombie movie could be as romantic and funny as this one? Haha! This is not to be missed if you like movies like Superbad and Epic Movie. I give this one an 8/10.

Transformers 2 is a great sequel to the original. The action and effects are off the hook! Not to mention the lovely eyecandy Megan Fox. If you liked the first then you'll definitely like this one. I give it a 7.5/10.

Planet 51 is pretty heartwarming, and the visuals are great. This is the perfect show to watch with your girl. This show gets touching at times. Worthy of a 7.5/10 as well.

Frankly, G-Force is some boring shit right there. The plot is stupid and broken. But I can't deny that the characters are cute, so watch it only if you like furry animals. This gets a 6.5/10 from me.

Just to reiterate, I fucking love Inglourious Basterds! I hope there's a sequel!

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Okay time to do my work. Thankfully Puffy didn't whine and all that today. Maybe he's not as bad as I thought he was.

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Okay I love the YouTube community now :)

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Goshdarnit I feel so loved. Dang :)

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Wow, this is the first time someone actually helped me do something computer-related. It's just a small tip but it really helped my ass and gave me some peace.

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I just watched G-Force, Transformers 2, Zombieland and Inglorious Basterds lol, now moving on to Planet 51 :)

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Light travels faster than sound. That's why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

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I told someone that my world is an ugly place, and the reply was: "If you slow down in life, you'll start to realize that many things in life are beautiful".

Is it true?

What if I never want to stand up once I lie down?

I'm so afraid.

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I need to buy a Netbook, a Wii and a Playstation 3 by the end of next year. I'll need to do some serious money management planning since my allowance is lower now:

I currently have $200. Per month I get $300, but transport will be $50, so I'm left with $250. $4 per day for meal would be more than enough, so if I spend $4 a day, I'll spend $80 per month. I'll be left with savings of $170 monthly. By the end of January, I'll have $370 ($670 at first but can't be spent). By the end of February, I'll have $540 ($840 at first but can't be spent). By the end of March, I'll have $710 ($1010 at first but can't be spent).

I'll get a PS3 in February, hopefully by then the price has dropped enough for me to get FFXIII as well. Darn.

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Give a man a fire and he'll be warm till it dies. Light the man on fire and he'll be warm till he dies.

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A virus is not some mysterious piece of code that walks right into your computer without you knowing and infects you. Do not associate a computer virus with a real human-infecting virus. A virus is like any other program, it MUST be executed in order to do any damage.

It's how the viruses are executed that gives people the illusion of "invading you through your network and infecting you". Of course, execution requires, most of the time, user acknowledgment. Viruses run on explicit authorization from the user, usually by disguising itself as something else.

The most common method of tricking users into executing viruses is through the Autorun. HOWEVER, computers running Windows XP or above no longer use Autorun by default.

Since the old Windows XP service packs, Autorun has been changed to something known as Autoplay. Autoplay displays a menu asking users what they want to do (e.g. Open folder to view files, execute autorun, etc.).

The only time Autorun is really in play is when a user double-clicks on a drive. Autorun would change a drive's icon to that of the executable (virus) being run. However, smart programmers disguise the executable's icon by assigning the default drive icon to the drive.

Any user smart enough to choose "Open folder to view files" or using Right-Click>Explore all the time would NEVER be infected by a virus exploiting the autorun.inf file.

The only time Autorun (instead of Autoplay) runs automatically when you insert a removable media is when you've already been compromised before. Modern viruses smart enough to edit registry keys upon execution will cause your system to use Autorun instead of Autoplay in the future. This opens the door to future attacks.

If you have a virus in your computer, the chances of it being there without the user's assistance is literally zero unless you're a priority target. Even certified hackers have little means of deploying a virus remotely.

However, saying "don't run executables" is like saying "don't eat kablakahs" when you don't know what or how a kablakah look like. (There's no such thing I just made it up). Viruses come in a few common forms like executables (.exe), batch (.bat), 16-bit DOS file (.com), VBScript (.vbs), and so on. Here's a complete list.

Media (pictures, videos, music) are NOT capable of infecting a computer unless it is capable of supporting a scripting engine. The JPEG and WMV viruses are long gone, and future codec developers will always learn from the mistakes of those before.

Virus removal is very simple. They can exist only in two ways and no more:
1) Autoexec (Startup, Services, Master Boot Record, Boot Loader)
2) Executing Engine (Modifying the library responsible for running executables, such as the method used in advanced viruses (back then) like W32.Spaces through the registry's .exe entry. It literally inserts a copy of itself into every .exe file you run.)

The first method is the most common and is very easy to remove. You just need these steps:
1) Set to Diagnostic Startup using msconfig in normal Windows
2) Upon reboot, hold F8 and enter Safe Mode
3) Set to Diagnostic Startup in Safe Mode
4) Reboot and re-enter Safe Mode
5) Delete all instances of the virus executable on the hard-drive
6) Disable auto Autorun and use Autoplay instead
7) Reboot into normal Windows
8) Manually reactivate all services using services.msc

You will never see the virus again after these steps. I rarely have to go through this, and it's usually only when someone else double-clicks on his infected thumb-drive on my system.

You will never get a virus when you put yourself in the shoes of the virus programmer:
1) How do I execute my code on the host computer?
(Autorun, browser loophole, programming language loophole, etc.)
2) How do I make sure that my code has redundancy?
(Startup, services, master boot record, boot loader, executing engine, etc.)

Once you grasp the methods, you'll find you've wasted CPU cycles on antivirus bloatwares for the past decade.

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Tickle me pink! <-- There's a nice ring to that phrase :O ----- Slow. Incompetent. Dull. Sounds like you. Yawn... Go on memorizing the facts, Mr. Photocopier. "Memorizing only works in secondary school"
-Zijie

HAHAHA true, very true.

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"You can lose money chasing women, but you can never lose women chasing money"
- from movie "I Think I Love My Wife"

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You know, I thought I'd be calm enough to be nice today but no, I'm still going to be nasty. There's so many things I haven't said, lol.

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Question:

XML documents display in a tree form. Why doesn't it display like HTML?

XML documents do not carry information about how to display the data. Since XML tags are "invented" by the author of the XML document, browsers do not know if a tag like <table> describes an HTML table or a dining table.

HAHAHA!

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"Never increase, beyond what is necessary, the number of words required to explain anything"
William of Ockham (1285-1349)

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Angels can fly because they can take themselves lightly. Are you an angel?

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Nothing to fear, term test is here! Not :)

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I died today. Twice. On the same spot.

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“As a sociologist explained to me, you don’t have to have a reason for going to college – it’s an institution. If I understand him correctly, an institution, sociologically speaking, is something everyone accepts without question. The burden of proof is not on why you go, but why anyone thinks there might be a reason for not going.” Caroline Bird

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I hope the "What is a Web-Server" question comes out in EWEBBAPP TT. I'll say...

A Web-Server is a daemon that listens to IANA well-known (<1023) port 80/tcp (typical) and responds to incoming connections using the HTTP Protocol (TCP/IP Stack Layer 1). HTTP is a connection-oriented protocol, and clients create sessions through a web-browser like Internet Explorer or a CLI Browser like Lynx. Web-Servers can serve static pages (eg. HTML) or pages generated on the fly (eg. JSP, ASP, PHP) as an Application Server. Examples of Web/Application Servers are IIS, httpd, apache and apache TomCat. The more TCP/IP related questions there are, the more opportunities for me to CHAO...

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R(ABCDEFGHI)
FD1: AB-EF
FD2: A-C
FD3: B-DGHI
FD4: H-I
FD5: AE-BDFGHI
FD6: BE-ACF

R1(A-C)
FD2: A-C
R2(BDGHI)
FD3: B-DGHI
FD4: H-I
R'(ABEF)
FD1: AB-EF
FD5': AE-BF
FD6': BE-AF

R3(HI)
FD4: H-I
R1(A-C)
FD2: A-C
R2'(BDGH)
FD3': B-DGH
R'(ABEF)
FD1: AB-EF
FD5': AE-BF
FD6': BE-AF

Customer_Rental(Customer_No,Property_No,CName,PAddress,RentStart,RentFinish,Rent,Owner_No,Oname)

FD1: Customer_No,Property_No->RentStart,RentFinish
FD2: Customer_No->CName
FD3: Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No,OName
FD4: Owner_No->OName
FD5: Customer_No,RentStart->Property_No,PAddress,RentFinish,Rent,Owner_No,OName
FD6: Property_No,RentStart->Customer_No,CName,RentFinish

The relation is not in 2NF as FD2 and FD3 are partially dependent on the primary key.

Customer(Customer_No->CName)
FD2: Customer_No->CName

Property(Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No,OName)
FD3: Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No,OName
FD4: Owner_No->OName

Customer_Rental'(Customer_No,Property_No,CName,RentStart,RentFinish)
FD1': Customer_No,Property_No->RentStart,RentFinish
FD5': Customer_No,RentStart->Property_No,RentFinish
FD6': Property_No,RentStart->Customer_No,CName,RentFinish

The relation is not in 3NF as FD4 is transitively dependent on FD3.

Customer(Customer_No->CName)
FD2: Customer_No->CName

Owner(Owner_No,OName)
FD4: Owner_No->OName

Property'(Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No)
FD3': Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No

Customer_Rental'(Customer_No,Property_No,CName,RentStart,RentFinish)
FD1': Customer_No,Property_No->RentStart,RentFinish
FD5': Customer_No,RentStart->Property_No,RentFinish
FD6': Property_No,RentStart->Customer_No,CName,RentFinish

The relation is not in BCNF as FD5 and FD6 have non-candidate determinants.

Customer(Customer_No->CName)
FD2: Customer_No->CName

Owner(Owner_No,OName)
FD4: Owner_No->OName

Property'(Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No)
FD3': Property_No->PAddress,Rent,Owner_No

Customer_Rental'(Customer_No,Property_No,CName,RentStart,RentFinish)
FD1: Customer_No,Property_No->RentStart,RentFinish
FD5': Customer_No,RentStart->Property_No,RentFinish
FD6': Property_No,RentStart->Customer_No,CName,RentFinish

R(A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H)
FD1: A,B->C,E,F,G,H(PK)
FD2: A->D
FD3: F->G
FD4: B,F->H
FD5: B,C,H->A,D,E,F,G(CK)
FD6: B,C,F->A,D,E(CK)

The relation is in 1NF as there are no repeated attributes.

The relation is not in 2NF as FD2 is partially dependent on FD1.

R1(A,D)
FD2: A->D

R'(A,B,C,E,F,G,H)
FD1: A,B->C,E,F,G,H(PK)
FD3: F->G
FD4: B,F->H
FD5': B,C,H->A,E,F,G(CK)
FD6': B,C,F->A,E(CK)

The relation is not in 3NF as FD3 is transitively dependent on FD1

R2(F,G)
FD3: F->G

R1(A,D)
FD2: A->D

R''(A,B,C,E,F,H)
FD1': A,B->C,E,F,H(PK)
FD4: B,F->H
FD5'': B,C,H->A,E,F(CK)
FD6': B,C,F->A,E(CK)

The relation is not in BCNF as FD4's determinant is not a candidate key.

R3(B,F,H)
FD4: B,F->H

R2(F,G)
FD3: F->G

R1(A,D)
FD2: A->D

R'''(A,B,C,E,F)
FD1'': A,B->C,E,F(PK)
FD6': B,C,F->A,E(CK)

R1(DBE)
FD4: DB-E
R(ABCDE)
FD1: AB-CDE(PK)
FD2: DBC-A(CK)
FD3: EBC-DA(CK)

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Nothing beats being able to use my computer uninterrupted. Really.

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The brain is like a muscle. It becomes dull when not regularly exercised.

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I'm a nasty person. When I grow up, I'm going to climb the corporate ladder. I'm not going to be a pretty boy. For now, at least, there are people worth helping. Those are the people who put down their pride to learn. In turn, I learn from them.

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Lead my ass, Mr. Self-Appointed Leader. I don't even see shit in you. Are all of your race this self-deluded? Roy and Shafiq are musically inclined, and they've been really nice people. Wilson is mathematically and kinesthetically gifted, not to mention attractive. Jensen is good in everything. You? Nobody even knows HAHA. What a joke. If Jensen didn't quit, you'd never be in here.

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If you can do something well, you can do something better.

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"Imagination is more powerful than knowledge" - Einstein

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Coming right up:
-ECAPP Discovery
-ORGCOM IPIC Test
-IDGD Presentation
-DASYS Lab Test
-ECAPP Term Test
-DMSD Term Test
-EWEBAPP Term Test

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I'm a lousy friend, I don't deserve anyone.

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It's 4 fucking a.m., stupid assignment(s).

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I wrote a 2000 word article for my IDGD Discussion Board. Combined with the previous assignments and discussions, I've probably written well over 15000 words for IDGD. Don't you find it weird that a programming subject requires more typing than say, Psychology or Sociology? Now I have more work to do.

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The subconscious-self processes information far quicker than the conscious. In terms of computing, think of the conscious-self as a processor, and the subconscious as an ASIC module. Thus it is wise to make a conscious effort to push all cognitive-intensive operations to the subconscious level.

Foundation in a topic is not how much of the basics you memorize, but how well your mental algorithm generates answers for more complex situations. Such an ability is what differentiates a quick learner from the slow.

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To conform to the norms and values of the society is to be average. Ask yourself, are you average?

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Passion to fuel the dream, vision to lay the path, action to claim it all. This is the road map to success.

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Life is a fixed path shrouded by the illusion of choice.

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So much shit to do.

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!@#$%^&*(). I opened my coffee powder and put it into my instant noodle, then I picked up the MSG and took like 5 seconds to realize it HAHAHA.

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There goes my DMSD and ECAPP quizzes. Other than that, my ECAPP discovery journal is fucked too.

IDGD is pretty contradictory. The report needs to be 10 pages long. After writing all that crap, you need to do a Powerpoint slide depicting everything in the report, and they want it to be only 20 slides. With everything I documented, I conjured up 40 slides. Fuck this, if they reject it, I'll kill somebody.

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I only have 2000 words. This is fucking impossible man.

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I woke up and it's 3:53pm.

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I just calculated and the 10 page essay for my IDGD equates to ~7000 words. Are they kidding me?

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I finally think RA and SD diagrams are useful.

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I want to...
1) Play with routers, switches and PIX firewalls
2) Play my keyboard
3) Play O2Jam/DJMax/Call of Duty - Modern Warfare 2/Resident Evil 4/5/Need for Speed - Shift

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I have too many things to do to bother. I'll start bothering after I...
1) Finish my WorldSkills PIX Firewall assignment.
2) Finish my ORGCOM report.
3) Finish my ECAPP discovery.
4) Finish my IDGD assignment 1.
5) Finish my EWEBAPP prototype.
6) Drop my HEM.

The most fuck thing is IDGD right now.

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I told Jensen his quiz was gonna die, but 5 seconds later I realized mine is the one that's dying HAHA. Come to think of it, I remembered seeing "<%=new Date()%>" but I didn't see any <%import java.util.*;%> or <%@page import="java.util.*"%>.

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Fire it up, I'm ready.

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These people are counting on me. But what if in the process of finding this success, I lose my very self. Will it ever matter in the end if I succeed or not then?

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Surprise me like I just did myself.

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I'm always looking for an edge - that unfair advantage that would set me above the rest. I have 10 months.

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Sometimes I wonder: If I work so hard for Worldskills, and yet I don't make it in the end, I'm then stupid, right?

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The road to perfection comes in small steps.

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Always learn from the best. Jeremy Cioara (Cisco), Ed Liberman and Coach Culbertson (Windows), Brett Manning (Vocal), Will Barrow (Piano), Jensen (English)

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There's this cock enlargement exercise known as Jelqing which I tried and really hurt my little brother. Now it's hurting like mad.

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No idea what to do for POST/GET, so I think I'm going to go through some basics of HTML, then explain the difference between POST/GET (on the address bar and internally) and then show a common problem and solve it with the PRG pattern.

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It's not knowledge that's power, it's applied knowledge.

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I really regret doing all that crap during the weekends. What am I going to do for Friday's test now? Great.

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God is going to help those who help themselves.

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Okay I really rock. I redid it in 25 minutes. Time for Worldskills, and hopefully they're using server 2008 this time.

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Damned shitty attempt to crack Windows, now my TS Gateway and my entire PKI is not working. I'll have to reinstall everything. Fuck damnit :@

I spent almost 5 hours to get those up running and BLEH.

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I have my own DNS pointing to my computer now :D
HTTP
HTTPS
I'm so freaking ready for DMSD and WEBAPPS BWAHAHA.

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I just read the first 20 pages of EM3 textbook and I realized I can't go on anymore. It's too crap to go into my mind. I'll be doing Cisco and Microsoft for the rest of the week. Fuck maths the most I'll just get 0 marks for that 5%.

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After days of struggling I finally fixed the certificate authority issue regarding TSG. You have no idea how glad am I right now.

Let's do a review:
Request certificate from IIS7 (Use full IP, eg 222.164.73.7. For other purposes, use the FQDN or the exact match IP used for connection as CN!)

Import certificate with certreq -attrib "CertificateTemplate: WebServer" (Do not import from MMC! Attributes for template is NOT set by IIS7)

Complete certificate enrollment in IIS7

Select TS Gateway certificate

Create a TS RAP (Use TS Gateway Managed, configure FULL IP because it will check FOR THE IP IN THE ADDRESS BAR, not the actual computer name. Use Computer Security Groups for INTERNAL NAME RESOLUTION)

Install the trusted root certificate from the CertEnroll share (I will need to put this in my USB if I need to do a VPN from school so that I automatically have trusts to the enterprise root CA). Use a GPO to install to domain.

A public key infrastructure is the most difficult concepts to grasp. I hope to be completely sure of this before I move on to Linux.

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Today, across 5 W2K8 servers, I reviewed...

Active Directory Certificate Services
- Enterprise PKI Infrastructure
- Certificate Templates
- Web-Enrollment
Active Directory Domain Services
- AD Users and Computers
- AD Sites and Services
DHCP Server
DNS Server
- Forward Lookup Zones
- Reverse Lookup Zones
- Conditional Forwarders
File Services
- Share and Storage Management
- DFS Management
- DFS Namespaces
- DFS Replication
Network Load Balancing
Network Policy and Access Services
- Network Policy Server
- Routing and Remote Access
- Remote Access VPN
- Point-to-Point Tunneling Protocol
- DHCP Relaying
Terminal Services
- TS RemoteApp
- TS Gateway
- TS Configuration
- TS Manager
- TS Session Broker
- Session Broker Load Balancing
- Session Broker Redirection
- TS Web Access
Web Server (IIS)
- Internet Information Services (IIS)
Windows Deployment Services
- Boot Images
- Install Images
- Capture Images
Windows Automatic Installation Kit
- Catalogue Creation
- Unattended File Creation

I also learnt...
Failover Clustering
Quorum Disks
- Node Majority
- Node and Disk Majority
- Node and Share Majority
- No Majority
FSMO (Flexible Single Operations Manager) (The M and O isn't a typo)
- Forest Level Operations Masters
- Domain Naming Master
- Schema Master
- Domain Level Operations Masters
- PDC (Primary Domain Controller) Emulator
- RID (relative Identifier) Master
- Infrastructure Master
NTDSUtil
- IFM Backup
- IFM Restore
- FSMO Seizing
Read-Only Domain Controllers
- Password Replication
- Local Administration
DNS
- Interforest Name Resolution
- Conditional Forwarders
- Stub Zones
- Secondary Zones
WSUS
- Upstream/Downstream Servers
- Independent Mode
- Autonomous Mode
- Replica Mode
- Restricted Mode

...and some bit more which I can't recall off my head now. (Yes I did type that list out =/)

Phew... Almost too much for my head for one day... But I really enjoyed it!

Tomorrow it's Maths for me. I'm not gonna enjoy it.

Sometimes I wish Mathematics concepts enter my head as easily as Cisco, Linux and Microsoft. =/

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I got into Introduction to Digital Game Development, I don't know if I should be happy or feel fucked because it's a programming subject haha.

Shafiq got into Music, Jensen got into Introduction to Human Computer Interaction with Edwin, Wilson got Voice Over IP (Holy shit I didn't even know there's this subject. If they're working with Cisco routers I'm gonna be so pissed haha), Roy got Cross-Cultural Psychology, Pavi got Essential Jap, Yeow Hon and Ada got Music (HAHA SHAFIQ), Benedict got no CDS(?), Tze Hao got MOE, Kim Koon got Problem Solving Techniques (WTF not sick of PSPS yet?), Gary got HuH&D (What's that lol)

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"I would say that humility is the pride of the incompetent", Oscar Maroni

Should really check that guy out lol.

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Today I did...

Terminal Service Remote Applications, Terminal Service Gateway, Terminal Service Session Broker, Terminal Service Web Access, Distributed Filesystem Namespace, Distributed Filesystem Replication, Windows Deployment System

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I OVERCLOCKED TILL 4.55GHz~!~!

But my computer hung after I reached the system properties page lol...

It was like 97 degrees~

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WTF primary school Maths is really quite scary.

"Jim bought some chocolates and gave half of it to Ken. Ken bought some sweets and gave half of it to Jim. Jim ate 12 sweets and Ken ate 18 chocolates. The ratio of Jim’s sweets to chocolates became 1:7 and the ratio of Ken’s sweets to chocolates became 1:4. How many sweets did Ken buy?"

I'm doing my Microsoft halfway and happened to stumble upon this question. My mind went completely blank lol.

I think it's...
((s/2)-12)/(c/2)=1/7
(s/2)/((c/2)-18)=1/4
s=68

I don't even know if I'm correct =/ there's so many answers out there. Holy shit this is primary 6 standard =/

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Here's my new overclock:
4220MHz~

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Server 2008 can I say... Pwns? :D

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I'm impressed, very very impressed, Ed Liberman.

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For some time I haven't got the drive to do this. Thanks for giving it back to me.

I love living in my own world. My world is a world of denial and I'm happy.

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Spent some time to draw this topology. I want to implement this to test what I've learnt so far with RADIUS and Guest VLANs.

This will be good (great) practice to solidify key facts and some opportunity to test out other technologies available.

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I really really want this

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I just finished my second book yesterday (filled the last 35 pages or so), and I filled 60% of my third book today (which is over 50 pages). I really have no life HAHA. I'm looking at a CCIE theory course now, and it's helping a lot in filling in all the blanks left out in CCNP. I'm not going to take CCIE anytime soon, but it will definitely help in my CCNA and CCNP certification.

I never knew reading about networking would be better than gaming. This is the first time I didn't game my ass off during the holidays. I guess I've grown up... HAHA!

Anyway I need a new pen (or pen brand altogether) because I spoilt almost 4 in the course of the weekend =/ Hopefully the Jetstream series would put an end to all these pen problems because it's getting really annoying having to spam on a rough paper in the middle of every paragraph just to unjam the ink.

Well, time to bathe and continue with my book :D It's so exciting just seeing it fill up...

...I think I'm sick.

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It took me 5 days to copy half of my 2-day Linux research into my exercise book. Darn. If only writing is like typing.

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VLAN4 580 /22
172.16.144.0
VLAN2 370 /23
172.16.148.0
VLAN3 290 /23
172.16.150.0
VLAN1 85 /25
172.16.152.0
PTP 2 /30
172.16.152.128

Switch1>
en
conf t
ho Switch1
in f0/11
sw m t
end

Switch2>
en
conf t
ho Switch2
in f0/11
sw m t
end

Switch1>
vlan dat
vtp domain kelvin
vlan 3
exit
conf t
in range f0/2 - 3
sw a v 3

Switch2>
conf t
in range f0/7 - 10
sw a v 3

BR>
en
conf t
ho BR
line vty 0 4
pass wss2010
login
logging synch
exit
line con 0
logging synch
exit
enable secret wss2010
in f0/0
ip add 172.16.152.1 255.255.255.128
ip helper 172.16.152.129
no shut
in f0/1
ip add 172.16.150.1 255.255.254.0
ip helper 172.16.152.129
no shut
in s0/0
ip add 172.16.152.130 255.255.255.252
no shut
exit
router ospf 1
network 172.16.152.1 0.0.0.0 area 0
network 172.16.150.1 0.0.0.0 area 0
no network 172.16.162.130 0.0.0.0 area 0
network 172.16.152.130 0.0.0.0 area 0
end

HQ>
en
conf t
ho HQ
line vty 0 4
pass wss2010
login
logging synch
exit
line con 0
logging synch
exit
enable secret wss2010
in f0/0
ip nat inside
ip add 172.16.148.1 255.255.254.0
no shut
in f0/1
ip nat inside
ip add 172.16.144.1 255.255.252.0
no shut
in s0/0
ip nat outside
ip add 172.16.31.2 255.255.255.252
clock rate 64000
no shut
in s0/1
ip nat inside
ip add 172.16.152.129 255.255.255.252
clock rate 64000
no shut
exit
ip access-list standard 1
permit 172.16.144.0 0.0.15.255
exit
ip nat inside source list 1 interface s0/0 overload
ip dhcp pool VLAN1
network 172.16.152.0 255.255.255.128
default-router 172.16.152.1
dns-s 152.226.64.11
exit
ip dhcp exclude 172.16.152.1 172.16.152.4
ip dhcp pool VLAN2
network 172.16.148.0 255.255.254.0
default-router 172.16.148.1
dns-s 152.226.64.11
exit
ip dhcp exclude 172.16.148.1 172.16.148.4
ip dhcp pool VLAN3
network 172.16.150.0 255.255.254.0
default-r 172.16.150.1
dns-s 152.226.64.11
exit
ip dhcp exclude 172.16.150.1 172.16.150.4
ip dhcp pool VLAN4
network 172.16.144.0 255.255.252.0
default-r 172.16.144.1
dns-s 152.226.64.11
exit
ip dhcp exclude 172.16.144.1 172.16.144.4
ip route 0.0.0.0 0.0.0.0 172.16.31.1
router ospf 1
network 172.16.148.1 0.0.0.0 area 0
network 172.16.144.1 0.0.0.0 area 0
network 172.16.152.129 0.0.0.0 area 0
default-information originate
end

Switch3>
en
vlan dat
vlan 2
vlan 4
exit
conf t
ho Switch3
in range f0/1 - 4
sw a v 2
in range f0/5 - 8
sw a v 4
exit

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One final step. It's all fun and games hereon.

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Slept for 3 hours, now I'm feeling rather pissed =/

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I asked myself, "If you die today, will anyone miss you? If you die, how many people will weep for you?"

I want to be someone great. I want people to know me. I want to be someone people respect and look up to.

WorldSkills is where my interest lies, and this is what I'm going to use as a springboard to my success.

I won't allow anyone to take my place. No, not even the IFC students or those from the School of IT. I want to be the epitome of a Computer Engineer.

I'm Kelvin, T13 CEN, 0800893J, and I swear my dedication to WorldSkills.

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Scope 1a - IP Address Planning - Subnet Planning using VLSM

For VLSM, simply do least host bits basic subnetting recursively from the largest host chunk.

Here's an example:
Given IP block: 10.167.144.0/21

Subnet A: 643 (/22)
Subnet B: 197 (/24)
Subnet C: 215 (/24)
Point-to-Point: 3 (/30)

Therefore:
Subnet A: 10.167.144.0/22
Subnet B: 10.167.148.0/24
Subnet C: 10.167.149.0/24
Point-to-Points: 10/167.149.0,4,8

Here's another example:
Given IP Block: 172.16.160.0/22

Subnet A: 233 (/24)
Subnet B: 107 (/25)
Subnet C: 89 (/25)
Point-to-Points: 3 (/30)

Therefore:
Subnet A: 172.16.160.0/24
Subnet B: 172.16.161.0/25
Subnet C: 172.16.161.128/25
Point-to-Points: 172.16.162.0, 4, 8/30

Scope 1b. IP Address Planning - Allocation of IP addresses in subnet
Nothing much about this =/

Scope 2a. Router COnfiguration - Interface configurations
in s0/0
ip add 172.16.160.0 255.255.255.0
in s0/1
ip add 172.16.161.0 255.255.255.128
in s0/1
ip add 172.16.161.128 255.255.255.128
in range s0/0 - 2
no shut

Okay I'll stop here. Actually I'll just do the Internetwork Case Study again. It'll cover everything. Why didn't I think of it.

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Things to do, in order:
Now - Set up a network that covers the scope
Later - Set up a Linux box through CLI
Night - Skype with Ivanna (yay~)
Overnight - Hack BlackShot for PinkPinkTop
Morning - Selection self-practice
Afternoon - Set up a different network that covers the scope
Night - Set up a Linux box through CLI
Overnight - Sleep
Morning - Selection self-practice
Afternoon - Set up a different network that covers the scope
Night - Set up a Linux box through CLI
Overnight - Sleep
Morning - Selection self-practice
Afternoon - Set up a different network that covers the scope
Night - Set up a Linux box through CLI
Overnight - Sleep
Morning - SELECTION~

In the event that I don't get through, I wish you guys all the best. Although we will be participating individually, we will win as a team and do TP proud. That's all I want now.

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I'm excited and I look forward to the things coming up.

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#Variables
IPTABLES=/sbin/iptables
DEPMOD=/sbin/depmod
MODPROBE=/sbin/modprobe
EXTIF="eth0"
INTIF="eth1"

#Modules
$MODPROBE ip_tables
$MODPROBE ip_conntrack
$MODPROBE ip_conntrack_ftp
$MODPROBE iptable_nat
$MODPROBE ip_nat_ftp
$MODPROBE ip_nat_irc

#Kernel Flags
echo "1" > /proc/sys/net/ipv4/ip_forward
echo "1" > /proc/sys/net/ipv4/ip_dynaddr

#Configuration
#-P sets the policy
#-F is flush
$IPTABLES -P INPUT ACCEPT
$IPTABLES -F INPUT
$IPTABLES -P OUTPUT ACCEPT
$IPTABLES -F OUTPUT
$IPTABLES -P FORWARD DROP
$IPTABLES -F FORWARD
$IPTABLES -t nat -F
$IPTABLES -A FORWARD -i $EXTIF -o $INTIF -m state --state ESTABLISHED,RELATED -j ACCEPT
$IPTABLES -A FORWARD -i $INTIF -o $EXTIF -j ACCEPT
$IPTABLES -A FORWARD -j LOG
$IPTABLES -t nat -a POSTROUTING -o $EXTIF -j MASQUERADE

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Okay Mistake Log done and tested to be working fine. When the user gets a question wrong, the entire question, the user's answer and the correct answer is appended to the log.

By the way I've compiled the programs into .jar files (Java Archive aka Java Executable Files) to be redistributed and run easily (just double-click man) :D

VLSM Calculator + Subnet Trainer + Cisco Press = WorldSkills :D

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Subnet Trainer is done :D I'll be brushing up the GUI and adding a wrong log.

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Now here's something sweet :D Full error checking - There's literally no way you can get an error or make calculations on invalid IP address/subnet/host count combinations.

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That day I was talking about a VLSM calculator capable of taking any amount of input of hosts and turning them into properly calculated VLSM. Now it's possible with KIPTK :D

Here's the calculator making quick work of Mr Loh's Internetworking Case Study example:

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So far so good :)

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I'm developing a Java IP toolkit I call KIPTK, which simply stands for Kelvin's IP Tool Kit. It will be a library of methods essential for simplification of subnet calculation. I will use it for future training programs I'm planning. Will post at least the beta today.

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FARKING DIE LA FARK SHIT ARGH.

For Question B4c, I wrote, "Nyquist's data rate formula assumes a noiseless, band limited channel, while Shannon's capacity takes noise into consideration". WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF WAS I THINKING~ ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

For B2c, the correct answer is "Data throughput is the actual measured bandwidth, at a specific time of day, using specific network routes, while downloading a specific file.".

I ONLY MENTIONED ACTUAL MEASURED BANDWIDTH AT A SPECIFIC TIME OF THE DAY, I DIDNT SAY NETWORK ROUTE AND THE SPECIFICITY OF THE FILE~ ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. THERE.GOES.MY.Z BECAUSE EVERYONE PROBABLY SCORED FULL MARKS ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

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It's almost 8PM now. I'm trying to study NETFUND and I realized I farking die. I can tell you all about OSPF but I can't even tell you the two other advantages of using the OSI reference model other than simplifying teaching and learning.

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I finally hit 70% kill rate in BlackShot :D Headshot rate is ~35% and accuracy is ~35% which is much higher than the usual 10% for everyone else lol. Game ranking counts by kill amount and I have only 5k, so I probably have a long way to go =/

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CECK YOUR SKILLS HAHAHAHA! DID ANYONE SEE THIS?!

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I'm stuck at Chapter 5 question 18 for the past 30 mins and still haven't solved it. It's so frustrating damn. I'm going to play games, fuck Maths please, argh.

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I was stuck at Chapter 5 question 19 for 25 mins. My God.

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WTF I guess I must be worrying about Maths too much, my kill ratio dropped to 60% damn.

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9:30AM, exactly 24 hours before the exam, are you sexcited?

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I dreamt that I failed Maths, then I was sad so I took a nap and missed the MCT paper. Then I called Clement and he said he understand that I have SARS. Then I went downstairs to get an MC and woke up.

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Been playing too much Blackshot. Started to get a little worried so I did some Maths papers from OLE.

Now I'm stuck at C1 of Oct 2008 =/ I'm so tingly worried.

On the brighter side, here's Oct 2008 Question B2b in 4 lines:

Much easier than the one given in lecture right? :D

Okay back to Blackshot and the recently revived DJMax, it helps me think better.

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I think I've got a total of about 10 MVP in Blackshot yesterday and today, lol.

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So much for being so freaked out about statistics. Just browsed through the whole handout and found out that it's so much easier than, say, fixed-length subnetting; especially when my calculator is able to convert raw data into mean and standard deviation in 3 simple steps... LOL.

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I just rushed through Fourier. Did question 6 and felt really depressed. How did I get stuck at a question as simple as 6(b) for 30 MINUTES! HELLO? Imagine if it's the exam.

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Quite an interesting read :D
clicky

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Here's my latest temperature, more ridiculous than the previous 39.3º

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I want to buy this!

Wait, I already did :D

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LOL the last time I posted a picture was in the m1 = m2 objects reference post.

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I just completed my 7th COMPROG project. Half of them came back and asked for flowchart. The other half came back and told me they can't understand the code. What am I to do?

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I think I want to shift my OS over to my 500GB HDD and keep my 160GB for backup. It's really limiting me in many ways.

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I get pissed off by the slightest things. I wonder if I'm going to become like my dad who's destined to lose everything to his silly temper.

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Wow I never knew you can learn new words from spam mail titles. I thought the word "semi-pellucid" was interesting so I went to Google it and surprisingly it's a real word. It means "semi-clear". And how about this: "dysmeromorph" is a cock drug, yum.

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"In a virtualization, each guest operating system thinks it's the real operating system on the host"

What if the world is not real? What if we're living in a virtualization. How sure are you that you will wake up on the same bed tomorrow? How sure are you that you were born years ago and not simply created yesterday? How sure are you that your memories are real?

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It's 3am now and I have to sleep. It's labtest tomorrow I think I'm about to screw it up =/

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I have a virtualized copy of Ubuntu, Debian, Windows XP SP3, and I'm getting Windows 7 soon... :D For some weird shitty reason Ubuntu runs a shitload faster than Debian. They're supposed to be the same since Ubuntu is based on Debian anyway.

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If I have the money I would buy...
A new pair of earphones
A hair-dryer
A netbook
A 16GB Thumbdrive
A 2600 series
A 2950 series
Etc etc...

See, I'm so easily satisfied

I need to diarrhoea brb

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Got a new computer chair, a new bed. Well, what can I say...

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When I was young, perhaps a dozen years ago, I hid a crowbar somewhere in my room because I was afraid that one day my dad would use it against me.

Every time I quarreled with my dad, I would search my room for it, but I was never able to find it.

But today, it's different; today, I found it at the back of my bag closet. The next time he pulls off something like this, he's going to bleed.

I'm not going to hold back. I'm going to teach him a lesson he missed ten years ago. I'm no longer docile. Even if he does not provoke me, I would provoke him.

I need to quench my demon. I'm no gentleman. I don't build my life on illusionary honor. Perhaps the young Kelvin chose not to discard the crowbar because somewhere deep down inside he knows that he'll need to save it for me.

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I'm disappointed in myself. I told myself not to have coffee during weekends and I ended up sleeping throughout the last 2 days, only waking up for food, poo and pee. I did some last minute revision (or vision, since I don't know most of the stuff I'm reading) from 7pm to 8pm and after that I can't remember what I did because think I went back to sleep. How I wish the Maths quiz tested on EIGRP and OSPF or something.

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Shit.

I got CCNP BSCI Official Certification Guide so I thought I can skip the Amazon bundle and just get the books one by one because I'd have an extra copy of CCNP BSCI Official Certification Guide. I went to get CCNP ISCW Official Certification Guide for $70 at the school bookshop. Then I turned around and thought... If I bought the other two books in the series (BCMSN, ONT), I'd have spent $210. Might as well buy the bundle of 4 books for $190 and sell the extra. What the fuck was I thinking.

It's alright though, the aunty was very very nice to me I don't regret anymore.

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It's important that you build a foundation where you can relate your newfound information to. Don't memorize what you study. Instead, understand what you study, and memorize what you understand.

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I just bought:
CCNP BSCI Official Certification Guide
Exam Cram CCNA Security
Exam Cram CCNA Voice

About 1100 pages... For S$215...

Fuck. If I ordered from Amazon I could have gotten the promotion bundle:
CCNP BSCI Official Certification Guide
CCNP BCMSN Official Certification Guide
CCNP ISCW Official Certification Guide
CCNP ONT Official Certification Guide

for S$190... That's like 2500 pages + 4 CDs.

That's about S$47.50 each. My BSCI book itself costs $90 from Kinokuniya. Double the freaking price lol... I can never ever get that bundle because I already have the BSCI so no point thinking about it now.

Besides, the Kinokuniya phone operator is fucked up and should go and die. I'd still patronize the store because of good customer service staff in the main store though.

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The IPSec concept is so cool, especially the part about protection. There's a method of exchanging shared secret keys over public networks securely, known as Diffie-Hellman key exchange, which is a method of asynchronous encryption. Asynchronous encryption uses two keys, public and private keys randomly generated during connection establishment. The public key of a certain router is used to encrypt data in a way that only the corresponding private key can decrypt. Although the public key is a mathematical formula, it's irreversible due to its complex "discrete logarithmic" nature which would result in millions of possible reverse solutions. The process goes like this:

Suppose we have 2 routers A and B attempting a VPN connection. They need to share PSKs over public internet.

1) Router A and B exchanges hashed (MD5/SHA-1) PSKs to authenticate each other.
2) Router B requests a VPN connection to Router A
3) Router A sends its public key to Router B
4) Router B sends its public key to Router A
5) Router A encrypts a shared secret key (DES, 3DES, AES etc) with Router B's public key and sends it over
8) Router B decrypts the assigned PSK with its own private key.

Now that both sides have the shared secret keys, connections for the session will be done through encryption through the shared secret key.

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I've finally completed the BSCI syllabus. Now I've got ICDN1 (CCENT), ICDN2 (CCNA), BSCI.

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You have no idea my friend. You're mixing with a group of people who, when I was on good terms with them, constantly talked bad behind your back. You have no idea.

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Oh and by the way, I see you managed to find your way here into my blog. Just how long are you going to sit there behind your monitor, huh? Isn't it frustrating to see me type all these stuff about you? HAHA.

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I've been really depressed recently, I don't know why. I didn't get full marks for OOP and worse, I got the same score as a noobshit. The time it took him to finish his labs really tells alot about his score. It's understanding the concept on one hand, and memorizing commands on the other. It's really frustrating and insulting to have people comparing me with him. I felt okay today when Luqman said "Kelvin is like Jensen", because it's saying "Kelvin is Intelligent". But if you're gonna have people comparing me with that other piece, you might as well call me slow. People who base studies on memory won't last long, and it'll eventually come to the day when it all breaks down.

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It seems I've recently been able to come to this "controlled" state far more quicker than I was able to in the past. It used to take me a week or more to get over something. If what just happened happened last month, I would have beaten someone up. But now, I just feel like suppressing all anger and start manipulating people. It feels great to be in control, really.

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Anyway just to blog about it, Roy said he's in Robotics because "he has the passion", hmm like as if I'm in Networking because I don't have the passion? After that he challenged me to join DJMax world championships because he said that he's good enough that, in the event that he doesn't get into Worldskills, he can get into World Othello Championship. I'm ranked online, DJMax Singapore 2th place for DJMP2, and World 4th in DJMT. What is he ranked online? 1929384th? Don't make me laugh, please :D I'm not going to retaliate, and I'm going to let him live his life of self-deception and delusion and allow him to go on a journey of self-destruction.

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It has come to my discovery that the more (in terms of recurrence) someone makes me angry, the easier it is to forgive him by attributing his actions to his stupidity.

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I feel like buying a set of 5 x Cisco 2512 routers for $226, seems like a good deal for a warehouse sale isn't it.

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I don't know if what I did was right... But I spent $38 on a CCNA exam questions book LOL.

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I'm pretty proud of myself. I finished ICND1 (CCENT) and ICND2 (CCNA) and on cisco.com's self-assessment exercise, I managed to get 97% on first try lool. I'm moving on now to BSCI, going to pursue CCNP syllabus.

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Linux is... Well... Nothing much =/ I mean, there's so much analogically similar things between the two OS's because, well, they're both OS's. The main terms and jargon between Windows and Linux are all the same, you'll just have to look around to find the features, and they're usually in the menu you'd expect them to be in anyway. CLI (command-line interface, aka terminal) wise, I'd say it's DOS with better features. Note: BETTER FEATURES, should be happy about that :D

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I totally owned the routers and switches today, they're like... Cheh cheh... And it's all thanks to ole-bb.tp.edu.sg =D

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I've been learning alot recently haha. I'm currently taking up ICDN1 for my Cisco CCENT certification which would cost about S$90. I find that in ICDN1 we learn exactly what we learn in NETFUND. I plan to take up ICDN2 right after ICDN1 for Cisco CCNA certification, which is probably gonna be "NETINFRA". Well it's a 12-hour course each, and the paper's gonna be scary.

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I want this. Imagine programming in Ubuntu on the bus man. That's heaven. I don't mind Windows XP SP3 and a full suite of developing tools too. At less than $300 even if someone steals it I won't feel shitty.

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I love Pixar and all their work. First I dropped a tear to WALL-E, now it's Up. It's amazing and after the show is over I still feel like I want to cry, LOL.

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I need all this. I'm not giving it up to chance. If you want it, you'll have to take it from me. Let me warn you, it's going to be a walk in the park for me, but not for you.

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I dreamt of Megan Tang. Not only that, we kissed. Must be the movies, yeah haha... To be honest I was sad when I woke up, LOL.

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I watched Night at the Museum 2: Battle of the Smithsonian and got freaked out when my laptop alarm running at 5am played "Coldplay - Life in Technicolor" the exact same time when the movie played it in the background.

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I don't know why but the first time I listened to Twilight's album like a month or two ago I only wanted to hear "Decode" and "I Caught Myself" by Paramore. Now I seem to want to hear "Flightless Bird" and "Bella's Lullaby" LOL.

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I watched Twilight and it was so romantic. Here's a song from the soundtrack: American Mouth - Flightless Bird

or if you want to listen to it, visit it here in Youtube

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Here's the complete step to set up a single router without using the configuration wizard:
(roughly what I can remember)
hostname Kelvin
enable secret ********
enable password ********
line console 0
password ********
login
line vty 0 4
password ********
login
interface fastethernet0/0
ip address 192.168.1.153 255.255.252.0
no shutdown
exit
router rip
network 192.168.1.1
exit
ip default-gateway 192.168.1.1

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I'm finally able to ping online sites such as www.google.com properly. I'm not sure what I did. I'll reset all configuration when I wake up and try to see what I did that allows it to work. It's 6am now LOL.

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I've set up my router so that telnet access works from my main system as well as my laptop and handphone (yes, telnet from handphone, and I can configure my router from there, haha!)

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I set up a Loopback Adapter and bridged my Realtek RTL8168B. I used NPF_{B2E5EF42-39F5-4AB5-9D8D-AC3FC89C8908} as my cloud interface. I'm now able to ping from my main system, laptop, and handphone :D

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This is quite exciting. I've managed to get the virtual router to show up in my physical router device list. Pings work with my router only (192.168.1.1), but fail with other computers and online sites (www.google.com etc). DNS works, it translates www.google.com to 216.239.61.104 but it does not reply pings. This is probably due to lack of protocol configurations. I'll figure it out :D

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I'm switching over to Networking Worldskills. I know I can't thrive in mobile robotics. I don't fancy programming with flowcharts, and I don't like to be limited to a $20,000 piece of robot equipment. Reliability and execution of algorithms is a great deal to me. If something can be reproduced once, I want it to be reproducible with the exact same result every single time it's done under same conditions. It seems success in mobile robotics is arbitrarily dependent on luck. Furthermore, I prefer working alone and independently, and I don't want to be limited by sub-par teammates. I hate spoonfeeding others every time something needs to be done. I like to learn through trial and error, and that's something that cannot be done effectively in the presence of others. I won't be able to bring the $20,000 equipment back home. I like being able to be able to experiment anywhere, not only in the lab, and that's something I can't do in Mobile Robotics. Besides, networking is more relevant to the current society now (think of bank mainframes and telecommunications etc). And Finally, to put it bluntly in the face, I don't like Roy.

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I'm becoming depressed being with you. This is a decision I must make. Please forgive me.

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FUCK! If I had known each COMINT lecture page consists of 2 pages I wouldn't have waited till now to start studying. THIS IS GOING TO BE THE FIRST SUBJECT I FAIL IN POLY. I'm at Seminar 3 now, and it's 12:40. I have to go to school in 20 minutes time.

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Shit it's 12:36AM and I haven't started on my COMINT. I really shouldn't have played all the games man. Now I feel like sleeping.

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First I initialized a Vector called "vec".
I initialized an IdolFinalist object, "m1", to "YAY HAHA" and 5000 votes.
Then I instantiated an IdolFinalist object, "m2", and assigned "m1" to it.
I called m2's setVotes and passed in 5000.
I added m1 to my vector.
Though I called m2's method, m1's votes became 5000.

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Today's coffee tasted exceptional, till I found my melted plastic spoon at the bottom of the cup after I finished it.

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This is no joke. Roy's a sensitive girl. I also suspects he takes drugs at night. I was so pissed off last night I swear I would have beaten him up if he said what he said to me in real life. I guess I'm sensitive too - I'm sensitive to losers.

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It's 12AM sharp and some private number just called me 7 times in a row and hang up. Was listening to music on my phone and it kept pausing man. Damn childish. Anyway it's the first time in 4 days I used my headphone and wtf heaven...

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There's also this guy called Daryl who's the coolest bastard of all time. I don't know how to put this without sounding gay but in my memory he's really lovely. Of all the people I've met in life I think he's the guy I owe the most to. Scrolling down my tagboard I realized I haven't SMSed him since he booked in to army but I don't dare to talk to him now because I don't know how to explain my disappearance. lol.

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I used to talk to a girl called Lizse. Yes it's a pretty name and I used to like her very much. We chatted every night till dawn during the holidays. She was so perfect, and she was so beautiful. Then one day, like I always do, I stopped replying messages and disappeared.

I think whenever I disappear, it's because I'm afraid. I feel I can't be any better, and talking more would reveal more of my flaws. When things are at its peak I just... Disappear.

Think of the people I've lost just because of this deviant behavior. I just saw her name at my Blog's friend links but I can't contact her anymore. She's neither on Facebook nor Friendster. She's probably attached and happy now....

Though I don't know her anymore...

I kind of miss her.

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LOL okay this must be a mistake. I actually find myself having reduced attention span and patience at the downside. I hope I know what I'm doing LOL

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I just drank a cup of ultra dense coffee. It's actually 4 cups of coffee evaporated to probably only 1/4 cup LOL. Now I'm feeling quite smart and Maths is easier than it usually is. I hope it lasts till 5pm.

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This is so messed up. I may have cancer in my left hand.

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Interpret, understand, commit.

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I mean to say that the world is full of beautiful things but nevertheless poor, very poor when it comes to beautiful moments and unveilings of these things. But perhaps this is the powerful magic of life: it is covered by a veil interwoven with gold, a veil of beautiful possibilities, sparkling with promise, resistance, bashfulness, mockery, pity, and seduction. Yes, life is a woman. - Friedrich Nietzsche

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Holy shit my mum's IQ in Shell's company profile is 146, 3 omfg points more than me!

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My path's paved with stepping stones disguised as obstacles.

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I'm all ready for the test tomorrow. Here's some general operation guidelines of the ADC0804:

Conversion begins during ~WR LOW-TO-HIGH.
During conversion, ~INTR is HIGH (Inactive).
When conversion is done, ~INTR goes to LOW (Active).
To display the converted data, pulse ~RD LOW.
When ~RD is back high, data will be latched.
When the data is at D0-D7, ~INTR goes HIGH (Inactive).

Take note of the hardware inverted terminals.
Bit numbers goes from left to right, which means to say:
76543210
01001001

6th bit of control must be 1 to write, 0 to read.
This means writing H20 to H37A will result in write, while H00 to H37A will result in read.

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I kind of miss my laptop. After all I haven't used it for over a week. It really feels good to type on it once again. The keyboard is such a wonderful thing to work on.

This year's on to a screwed start but it's okay I'm hanging on. To be honest I'm depressed. To exercise good intrapersonal intelligence, I'm going to suppress this emotions and look at things from a logical point of view.

I have these things I need to let go of:
1) First OOP graded lab.
2) Last question of Maths first maths quiz.
If I'm going to start with a handicap, so be it. I'm still going to score distinction. This semester, I'm not going to share any knowledge with anyone but Jensen and Shafiq.

Second I need to work to have these completed:
1) Study for MCT quiz
2) Get confident with Computer Interfacing
3) Complete quiz 1 for Sociology
4) Review Network Fundamental self-study and complete tutorial 3
5) Recover missing pieces about Laplace transform

Can someone help me feel better? Please? Maybe give me some free sex or something I'd appreciate it.

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Tell me... What do you feel when you think of me...? Do you feel warm and fuzzy... Does it tingle your heart so...?

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Tell yourself that you're okay. Be a man about it. If you can't climb over something, go around it. There are people around you who care, you just have to open your eyes. They're all counting on you, don't disappoint them.

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TODO:
Study EMATH3
Study MCT
Study COMINT
Study Sociology
Study NETFUND
Study OOP
Study EMATH3
Study MCT
Study COMINT
Study Sociology
Study NETFUND
Study OOP
Study EMATH3
Study MCT
Study COMINT
Study Sociology
Study NETFUND
Study OOP

That's life.

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I got home from camp. I put on my headphones. I felt alive for the first time in 5 days.

I have this urge to get textbooks and read ahead. I got Psychology for my previous CDS, and it's Sociology now.

My life till this point has been meaningless and unhappy. I want this semester to be fruitful.

This is a random post after a really long time I miss my blog haha.

So many things have happened. I went to Mentor Training Camp, Genting, Kuala Lumpur, CEN Is 4 U, Week Zero. I'm proud to be a part of the programme team though I haven't really interacted much with the people. I'm not that proud to be an organiser because the president's a weird fuck. I mean, sometimes he's nice but sometimes he's just such an asshole.

I realized the goal to be popular is to ask stupid questions. Usually people who repeatedly ask stupid and obvious questions I already know in a "confident, smart way" gets alot of attention. On the other hand people like me who likes to find out things myself becomes part of the minority lol. Also what I learnt recently is that you have to be the first to make noise, then you'll be able to continue making noise after that and become popular. It's weird and unwelcoming for a quiet person to suddenly make noise, isn't it?

For a while I felt the CENT president is treating me like a tool. I'm an organiser, not a dog. I'm willing to do a lot of dirty work, because if I am to be served, I must serve. I'm efficient and agreeable, but when I do something different I have a reason. Usually when I'm being lectured or ridiculed, I keep quiet, because I don't find a need to justify myself as long as I feel what I did is right. If shallow people like to perceive my actions as stupidity because they fail to see my intentions then it's their own loss not mine, I'm not going to educate them on the details of my wise actions ;) Recently Kenneth the president and Michelle the advisor have been their anger/emotions on me. But then again I do not really care. They feel great, I feel somewhat great too.

I want to run for the presidency of CENT, because I feel I have a need to bring CENT together. CENT now is some sort of disorganised, run-down crap club. When the semester begins, I'll be a confident, well-groomed, well-mannered, humorous person. I'll get a proper girl, not some online long-distance shit or some random single-month slut. It's been a long time since I really looked in the mirror feeling great about myself smiling subconsciously.

You know it's been such a long time since I heard someone calling me a "nice guy". The last person to tell me that is probably Lynette or maybe Grace. Hearing it from somebody in camp is really a rewarding experience. Though I would have agreed that I'm a nice guy back then, I no longer think I am one. I'm quite packed full of ill intentions somewhat. I backstab, I gossip, I insult, I create conflicts. I no longer am the innocent guy I thought I was.

School's starting tomorrow and I don't see where this post is going so I'm gonna stop here :D see you when I see you :D

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1st Stripe I

Basic circuit drill:
(Bridging escape - guard pass - mount)

Top control drill:
(Side control - north/south - side control - mount)

Guardwork drill:
(Escape side control to guard - opponent misses)

Mount drill:
(Keeping the mount - side mount - back mount including armbar from mount, fig 4 from mount, back choke)

Punching defense from under mount:
(Sit off to side, get head arm control, sweep to mount)

Standing headlock escape (opponent punching)
Standing headlock escape (opponent holding)
Defense to headlock from behind (basic)
Defense to headlock from behind (arched)
Defense against stacking

2nd Stripe II

Basic Sweep
Hooking sweep
Back sweep
Front sweep
Leg grab roll-over sweep
Sit-over sweep

Armbar from guard
Cross lapel choke
Figure 4 from guard
Triangle choke
Front choke from guard

Armdrag (offensive & defensive)
Duck under go behind
Bearhug takedown

3rd Stripe III

Standing guard pass
Torriander guard pass
Knee through guard pass
1/2 guard pass

Cross lapel choke from mount
Lapel 1/2 nelson choke from side mount
Lapel 1/2 nelson choke from back mount

Near armbar from kneeride
Far armbar from kneeride
Armbar from back mount

Mousetrap fig 4
Lower figure 4 from side control
Figure 4 from front (north/south)

4th Stripe IIII

Elow escape from mount
Bridge & ron
Side control escape to knees
Knee on stomach escape
North/south escape
Back mount escape

Headlock escape to back
Rolling headlock escape
Headlock escape to knees
Headlock frame escape

Straight ankle lock
Leg bar

Single leg
Double leg
Front choke (guillotine) escape to double
Omeplata

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fuck la my dad threw away the shoes that she gave me, you know how fucked up is that?! it's been outside my window for the past 3 years. it's like my family members cant stop subconsciously throwing away things from her. fuck.

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this is so screwed. i dont know anything about the front chapters of EVERY subject and i dont even know what the open collector / jfet / mosfet shit is. there's 3 days left to study everything im so dead.

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I'm revising maths now and I just came across one of the most bastard trigonometric integration questions ever:
∫sin²xdx

First of all, sin²x is not found in the table. You'll have to change it.

The first impression is:
sin²x + cos²x = 1
sin²x = 1 - cos²x
∫(1 - cos²x)dx

Okay now you're stuck again.

But upon closer inspection:
cos2x = 1 + 2sin²x

This looks so complicated that I didn't bother using it. To my surprise, that's the key to solving that crap:

cos2x = 1 + 2sin²x
(1 - cos2x)/2 = sin²x

Substituting in, we have:
∫((1 - cos2x)/2)dx
= 1/2 ∫(1 - cos2x)dx
= 1/2 (x + (1/2)sin2x) + c
= (1/2)x + (1/4)sin2x + c

Sanawabich...

Edit: Okay here's another one. Solved this immediately but I reckon someone would get stuck by this shit too.

∫cos(2t)sin(3t)dt

Okay you know a formula that looks pretty similar, but there's supposed to be a 2 in front of the equation, something like 2cos(2t)sin(3t). Dump a half in front, so it looks like:

1/2∫(x)dt

x is what you need to substitute in now. But what is it?

First of all, look at which has the larger number inside. Here, sin has 3t and cos has 2t, so sin is larger. Therefore, you should be looking at the 2sin((a+b)/2)cos((a-b)/2) one, which is sina + sinb

To work out the values of a and b, mentally envision a matrix:

1 | 1 | 6
1 |-1 | 4

1 | 0 | 5
0 | 1 | 1

a = 5
b = 1

Or if your brain is not running on overclocked quad cores like mine, you can use the noob method:

b = (6-4)/2 = 1
a = 6-b = 5

Now, you should have:
1/2∫(sin5t + sint)dt
= 1/2(-(1/5)cos5t -cost) + c
= -(1/10)cos5t - (1/2)cost + c

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im revising psychology now and the definition of schizophrenia makes me uncomfortable, lol:
Schizophrenia is a class of disorders in which severe distortion of reality occurs. The subject:
• Decline from previous level of functioning
• Disturbance of thought and language
• Delusions
• Perceptual Disorders
• Emotional Disturbances
• Withdrawal

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i'm extremely bad at maths, but maths is everywhere. maths governs every freaking thing in the world! IT'S EVERYWHERE~~!

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running on ubuntu now. did a little search and confirmed that it's OO-BOON-TOO, as stated on it's official website

http://www.ubuntu.com/aboutus/faq

How do you pronounce Ubuntu?
Ubuntu, an African word from Zulu and Xhosa, is pronounced "oo-BOON-too".

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got into PROGRAMMER for week zero~!

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the cutebu gl is cindy lim... ooo

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remember taylor swift, the "body by milk" girl they kept showing before every happy tree friends episode during bondwithcent2? omgwtf listen to her album. im in love with country music lol.

edit: wtf she's a dec 1989 lol

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the more you play games the smarter you are. no kidding. you dont even have to mug or pay attention to lessons at all. just look at me for example... :D

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integration by parts wee...

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i got a message from chee min li on the 6th of january

something about "alice"

i didn't think much about it till today

it started to make sense when michelle told us not to hold the night walk at EN18-6 due to some unforeseen disturbances

chee min li, the one who sent me the message about "alice", is our wrtoral teacher

if you recall the wrtoral room address, it's at 18-6.

i received the message at 6:18am, january the 6th. the full address of the wrtoral room is 18-6-106 (18 min, 6 hr, jan06)

"alice" coincidentally was the name of the mock ghost used every camp who was "rumoured" to be at 18-6, which happens to be the block we are restricted from holding the night walk at.

i hope it's apophenia

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if i don't get distinction for computer programming i'm gonna be so-damn-angry and you bet im going to make a scene

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work hard. nobody's ever gonna work for you.

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it's weird. i havent got a single youtube comment for two weeks and suddenly i'm getting at least 5 a day.

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if repeatedly wearing down your joints causes arthritis, i think i'll get finger arthritis.

dj max black square is so challenging, not only for the fingers but also mentally. i mean seriously, requirement of fever x8 for a level 14 song that runs as fast as dream of you in djmp2 is too much for me now.

i sprained probably every finger in my hand. it hurts to even type. i need a rest

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i ate a sandwich which expired last year, beat that

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oh dear have i sinned too much... it's all coming back to me, yes it is...

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4 minutes till i go to bed (end of this song). it's 12:47 now. i have to wake up at 4:45. take the 5:45 bus. reach shell bukit batok at 7. attend to the pumps till 11:30. check expiry from 11:30 to 7pm (<- meh). i just fixed my sister's psp. apparently elaine dropped it into a drain. even though it's running now i dont feel good about it at all. i forgot a lot of things and something is definitely wrong with the screws. goshdarnit man. 4 minutes is so much time. ANOTHER NIGHT, WAITING FOR SOMEONE, TO TAKE ME HOME!!!~ eh listen to lost by katy perry it's so sad ----- this guy makes o2jammers look like nothing. i swear. he's my inspiration, check out his profile for more

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why do i constantly do iq tests? do i really feel stupid or something? LOL

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this is the test required in my psychology CDS.

IQ is equivalent to mentalage/currentage

ya rite, nice try, 143 my foot k, do i really sound like some 25 years old ah pek >:(

anyway if you want to take, go here

there's another EQ test on the site, got 130 only :(

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solar powered torchlight.........LOOOOOOOOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111oneoneoneshiftone

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fuck man i think this is retribution. retribution for getting something i don't need. my phone cracked because i bumped into some guy in sitex, and my screen is so big i feel like puking when i play first-person-shooters. because my resolution is 1920x1200, my graphics get killed and i feel my games running at 80% their original speed and it's really pissing. argh damnit. remind me not to get something i dont need on impulse.

other than that this $600 was really well spent, though i feel i'll get a better level of enjoyment if i poured the money into an amplifier instead

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I want to go to Sim Lim Tower this Saturday to get components for a personal trainer kit that features:
1) 2 rows of 8 LEDs each connected to 8-bit SIPO (TC74VHC164FN) to display logic for the past 8 clock cycles
2) 4-bit counter connected to 4 LEDs and a decoder (4511) for 7-segment display.
3) 8 LEDs for common logic display
4) 8 toggle switches
5) 4 pushbuttons
6) 555 timer with variable resistor

Then I'll need a portable trainer kit that features:
1) 8 LEDs for common logic display
2) 4-bit counter connected to 4 LEDs and a decoder (4511) for 7-segment display.
3) 8 toggle switches
4) 4 pushbuttons
5) 555 timer running at 1Hz

Or maybe if it's available for cheap I'll just grab a real personal digital trainer lol.

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i find it really disturbing that some people have totally no respect for technology. even if the piece of equipment is "ordinary" or "common" to you, at least respect the fact that it's my property. i look down on you, and you don't even deserve the honor of receiving my vulgarities

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i wont sleep till i finish reading my whole book

classical conditioning:
neutral stimulus = random stuff
unconditioned stimulus = good/bad stuff
unconditioned response = response to good/bad stuff
conditioned stimulus = random stuff (after conditioning)
conditioned response = response to conditioned stimulus which is same as unconditional response to good/bad stuff

stimulus generalization = conditioned stimulus used to be white rat, but victim is afraid of anything furry
stimulus discrimination = conditioned stimulus used is white rat, and victim can tell the difference between any other furry animals

operant conditioning:
reinforcement = increases the probability of a behavior
punishment = decreases the probability of a behavior
positive = introduce
negative = reduce

positive reinforcement = reinforce behavior by introducing something good
negative reinforcement = reinforce behavior by removing something bad
positive punishment = discourage behavior by introducing something bad
negative punihsment = discourage behavior by taking away something good
something = stimulus

continuous reinforcement = reinforcement given everytime a behavior occurs
partial reinforcement = behavior is reinforced sometimes
fixed ratio schedule = eg rewarded once every 3 times a behavior occurs
variable ratio schedule = eg rewarded randomly
fixed interval schedule = every x seconds one reward
vriable interval schedule = eg randomly eg 1 reward 1 second then the next after 5 seconds and the next after 2 seconds

latent learning = behavior learned when child and not demonstrated till later in life
observational learning = monkey see monkey do. learning through observing another person known as a "model"

memory stages: encoding, storage, retrieval
= input, storage, output

sensory memory = filter 0.5-1 sec
short-term memory = working area 15-25 sec
long-term memory = storage

instant short term storage capacity of average human is 7 pieces plus minus 2. kelvin has 13 without chunking how cool is that

two ways to commit short term memory into the long term memory
1) rehearsal is the repetition of info in the short term memory
2) elaborative rehearsal is the organisation of information to be transferred (eg mnemonics, imagery etc)

long term memory (unlimited capacity (trivia: kelvin has a few yottabytes, which is equivalent to approximately 3000 times the capacity of all the world's computers added together in 2008))

2 categories of memory:
1) explicit (intentional conscious recollection. factual information.
2) implicit (memories that are subconsciously brought up. can affect behavior and performance. skills and habits)

models of memory
1) information > SENSORY MEMORY (1 sec) > attention > repetitive STM (15-25sec) > elaborative rehearsal > LONG TERM MEMORY

recalling long term memory
1) retrieval cue (a stimulus that helps us recall, eg smell recalls what you ate this morning. your friend's face lets you recall that you're handsome etc)
2) constructive process
3) we remember based on schema (memory templates)

tip-of-the-tongue phenomenon occurs when you can't recall some information that you know that you know

levels-of-processing theory
shallow processing - in terms of physical characteristics - CAT is a word made up of 3 letters of the alphabet
deep processing - in terms of its meaning - cat is an animal with 4 legs and a tail and it belongs to the family of the feline carnivorous mammals

flashbulb memory
memories recorded about a surprising, important even that is so vivid it represents a virtual snapshot of the event (eg 911, tsunami)

eyewitness memory are usually not accurate/reliable

forgetting: when memory fails

things are forgotten almost exponentially

decay is the loss of memory through non-use. assumes that when something is learnt, a memory trace appears in the brain (a physical change)

interference is the process whereby other memory blocks or displaces information

proactive interference = study of previous language interfere with next language study
retroactive interference = study of later language interferes with previous language recall

alzheimer's disease = illness that causes severe memory problems

korsakoff's syndrome = disease that affects long-term alcoholics

amnesia = memory loss that occurs by itself

retrograde amnesia = loss of memory before incident

anterograde amnesia = loss of memory after incident

motivation = factor that direct and energize the behavior of organisms

instincts = inborn patterns that are biologically determined rather than learned

drives:
1) primary = biological needs (food, water etc)
2) secondary = brought about by prior experience and learning (achievement, recognition etc)

when people lack something, a drive is produced to quench the lack

homeostasis is the body's basic motivational phenomenon that helps maintain a steady internal state

arousal approach is to maintain an optimal level of stimulation and activity and increasing or reducing them as necessary

incentive approach stems from desire to obtain external incentives. an external stimuli direct and energize the behavior.

cognitive perspective
1) intrinsic - for our own enjoyment - intangible
2) extrinsic - for something concrete - tangible (paycheck etc)

maslow's hierarchy of needs
1) self actualization
2) esteem
3) love and belongingness
4) safety needs
5) physiological needs
^
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self-actualization - people realize their highest potential in their own unique way

need for achievement - a stable, learned characteristic in which satisfaction is obtained by striving for an attaining a level of excellence. measured using TAT (thermatic apperception test)

need for affiliation - an interest in establishing and maintaining relationships with people

need for power - tendency to seek to impact and influence others and to be seen as a powerful individual

emotions - feelings that involves physiological and cognitive elements and it affects behavior and performance

functions:
1) prepare us for action
2) shaping our future behavior
3) helping us interact more effectively with others

theories of emotions:
1) james lange - activation of visceral bodily changes - brain interprets visceral changes as emotional experience
2) cannon bard - activation of thalamus - 1) activation of bodily changes in response to brain 2) message to cortex regarding emotional experience
3) schachler singer - 1) activation of general physiological arousal 2) observation of environmental cues - determination of label to place on arousal, identifying emotional experience

face-affect program - activation of a set of nerve impulses that make the face display an appropriate expression

display rules - guidelines that govern the appropriateness of showing emotion nonverbally

persuation how easy or difficult depends on
1) message source
2) characteristics of message
3) target

routes to persuasion
1) central route processing - thoughtfully considers the issues involved in the persuasion
2) peripheral route processing - persuaded on the basis of factors unrelated to the nature of the persuasion (celebrities in ad)

central is more powerful, but requires a highly involved and motivated and attentive target

peripheral is less powerful but works on a less movitated target

attitudes and behavior
1) cognitive dissonance - when a person holds two thoughts that contradict each other - i know smoking leads to cancer, i smoke.
cognitive modification - dissonance is modified "i don't really smoke too much", deimportantized "evidence is weak that smoking causes cancer", add "i exercise so it doesn't matter", deny "there is no evidence linking smoking and cancer".

social cognition - processes that underlie our understanding of the social world
schemas - sets of cognition about people and social experience. social memory template
impression formation - process by which an individual organizes information about another person to form an overall impression of that person

central traits
traits utilized to form an impression of others

attribution theory
explains how we decide on the basis of a sample of the person's behavior what the specific causes of the person's behaviors are

situational causes
brought out by something in the environment

dispositional causes
a cause prompted by the person's traits, personality, etc

halo effect
inference of a person's traits based on his positive traits

assumed similarity bias
tendency to think that people are similar to oneself even during the first meeting

self-serving purpose
tendency to attribute personal success to personal factors (skills abilities etc) while failures to factors outside oneself

fundamental attribution error
over-attribute people's failures to dispositional causes while corresponding failure to recognize the importance of situational causes

social influence - actions influenced by group effect
1) compliance
2) conformity
3) obedience

compliance - response to direct social pressure
1) foot-in-the-door technique - increase slowly
2) door in the face technique - big request, then small request
3) that's-not-all technique - offers a deal at inflated price then offers incentive, discounts etc
4) not-so-free sample - i treated you that day so you must treat me back today

conformity - change in behavior brought about by a desire to conform to a certain standards of other people
1) characteristics of the group
2) situation of the individual
3) kind of task
4) unanimity of group

dangers of conformity
1) groupthink - a type of thinking which group members share such a strong motivation to achieve consensus that they lose the ability to critically evaluate alternative points of view
(consensus = general agreement)

obedience is a change of behavior due to commands of others (usually of authority)
when followed blindly it is disastrous

positive social behavior
altruism - helping behavior that is beneficial to others but requires self sacrifice
diffusion of responsibility causes bystander effect- tendency for people to feel that responsibility for acting is shared or diffused among those present (people stand around waiting for others to do action)

negative social behavior
aggression - intentional injury or harm to another person
catharsis - aggression as a release (discharging built up aggressive energy)
aggression as a result to frustration
frustration - blocking of some on-going, goal-directed behavior
learnt behavior - learning to hurt others, effects of modelling, rewards and punishments (observational learning approach)

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I want a 24" LCD because it's really big :(

How big?

1920*1200
3686400+1440000=5126400
24*24=576
576/5126400*1440000*2.54=32.308cm
576/5126400*3686400*2.54=51.693cm
1440*900
2073600+810000=2883600
19*19=361
361/2883600*810000*2.54=25.57cm
361/2883600*2073600*2.54=40.92cm
((32.308*51.693)/(25.57*40.92)-1)*100%=59.6% bigger!

I can really make a program out of this lol...
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it's really scary to think how your computer components came about. the number of steps required in wafer fabrication is just mindblowing. how people came up with such intricate processes (two darnage hundred steps per harddisk wafer) really fumbles me. how did they know it was going to work in the firstest first place

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cod5 makes you really high especially when you're playing in the singapore sever with a bunch of noobs. you really get the "omfg im 1337" feeling.

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i have a harddisk that can contain 12 terabits (12,000,000,000,000) of information how cool is that. it only costs $238.

on the other hand, our breadboard's design can hold 4 bits of information. assuming it only costs $5 (the breadboard is already $5.60, not to mention the components on it), it would cost $15,000,000,000 to make a 12-terabit storage

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The Pale Blue Dot

Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader", every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there – on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam. -- Carl Sagan

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i spent $2423 last month and i dont know how i did it rofl.

anyway, my current wishlist:
$299 samsung 2253LW (22" lcd panel)
$238 seagate barracuda 1.5TB harddisk
$65 sandisk cruzer micro 16gb

i really need the hdd now, though. the rest can wait. besides, i'll have a MTBF of 85.616 years to fill it lol.

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Si vis pacem fac bellum

"... when all other means fail, ... the liberation of the world from military domination can in the extreme case only take place by battle. ... in place of the reprehensible si vis pacem para bellum a similarly sounding principle ... may become a necessity: Si vis pacem, fac bellum.

If you want peace, prepare for war.

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the computer has no brain, use your own

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lol you know there are so many people in the class trying to prove that they are smart and it's amusing just watching

we have a proud, a self-proclaimed, an elite and a mentally challenged. there's probably more waiting to surface in the next few years lol.

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it's easy to create an application
it's quite easy to program its logic to do what you want
it's quite difficult to make the application look good
it's fucking difficult to make the application look good under all circumstances and operating environments

just look at all the commercial software for POS or vat timers, fucking ugly.

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StringEx.java is one tricky shit, and the solution is fucking obvious. i got stuck at this exercise for over half an hour because of the requirement for getName() to return a value (a String datatype) as well as prompt for stuff, which hasn't been taught in the text. but then again it's a great finale to this semester's programming lol.

the program is stating the obvious. sigh..... :D:D:D

anyway, just a hint:

main method()
{
// Declarations
String variable1;
String variable2;
method()
{
// Shit calculations, prompts, loops, boolean comparisons
return variable1;
}
variable2 = function();

function will exercute FIRST, then prompt/loop/whatnot, then assign return to variable AFTER.

now i have 77 source codes in my thumb drive covering all 17 labs. it's like soo waiting for someone to steal it wahaha
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you know, when i tried to learn C++ 3 years ago, i gave up because of arrays LOL

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wtf the code provided in lab 14 is so messy you'll take 2 minutes writing your own and probably 10 minutes trying to edit the shit.

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arbitrality detection if matrix encounters infinite answers. also, users can choose to make new calculations without having to restart program :D

my masterpiece now has 24576 characters and 627 lines

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at first i thought my new system got its ass kicked by far cry 2 but when i realized the framerate was quite high i knew the sluggish mouse control couldn't be due to system lag. then i found this thread. damn what a disrace to crytek's far cry 1

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either i'm a fucking genius or something
please view my latest program :D

and no it's not copied from some site lol.
in fact the algorithm is from the textbook.

took me 2.5 hours and 563 lines of programming for this simple task roflmao

anyway here's the features:
- able to find determinant, adjoint, inverse matrix, and all variables
- able to perform gaussian elimination and describe the process step by step
- works with 2x2 and 3x3 matrices

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lesson no.1: don't use max volume for headphones when you just woke up.

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wow wtf i just realized the amount of help i could have gotten if i used a recent calculator during my O's wtf.

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bye bye

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lol had the first laugh in edmw in over 2 months

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this is so cool. 455 processes, 20000 process charts, to make 1 processor. intel wafer fabrication factory. the guy in the spacesuit speaks alien language bridged some with english

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omgwtf i just saw my results!! fucking shit i only got 1 distinction. goshdarnit man argh :( and wtf my stupid gpa is 3.87 :(

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1.5tb hdd is only $299 now wtf.

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lol i find myself having to explain myself again and again for all of my actions because shallow, short-sighted people fail to see my real intentions. they end up "oh so you bla bla bla, tat's y you do tat. i tot wat".

i'm sorry but the bottomline is: say no to china.

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omg black metal artists have the most ridiculous album art ever. take for example mayhem's "dawn of the black hearts" album featuring a dead band member wtf.

been reading black shit for the past 2 hours, then another hour watching cynthia witthoft's disgusting videos. shit's addictive but really need a rest

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i'm just your friend don't get the wrong idea you're too old for me LOL. jk pls :D lick me

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i'm not yours haha :D too bad. but at least you still have your fingers to keep you company today

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the fucking pieces of crab were still moving for more than 20 seconds you sick fuck. you could have just spared it, but NO~ someone had to chop something.

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i'm yours.. i think :D

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goshdarnit wtf? i do so much for customers and i get measly tips while june just flicks her hair and gets $50 WTF??!?!?!? this is insane.

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i love goth dolls. i mean, who doesn't, right?

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please, when you need a shave, go get brazilian wax. either that, or be fucking careful and don't do it when you're in a rush. i shredded my baby. i'm quite sad.

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today when doing the pumps with june, she found a leaf insect. it's so cute.

also, she wore a very mini skirt and pink panties for her lower half and 7-11 shirt on the upper half. that's retarded. i think she just "regularfied" many uncles today lool.

then after work we went to toa payoh and ate mini wok noodle (with my mum :D)

on the trip there i played dj max and she's not even impressed. lool.

june is very nice. i think i want her :D

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today is dam shattered man. the entire station's formula 92 ran out, and the shit was followed by formula 95. customer pumped and only had $3 of petrol in their 60L car. damn messed up man. at least june was very nice to me, till i started repeating that "today is very "cui"" (shattered). she said she wanted to hammer me :(

then a customer came back to complain that he lost his shell card and he said "boss's son served me". you know how damaging is that to my reputation. the shell card NEVER LEAVES THE CASHIER'S HAND. there's no need for it to. the card is returned with the receipt and who the fuck will leave the place with just a receipt and no card since that's the only two things we have to give back during a shell card transaction. srsly man.

then the new china girl (bi ying) is scary. she included 3 different customer's petrol in the same receipt and overcharged the customer by $25. and worse still, that's when there's like this 10-person-long queue standing there just staring at me panic trying to look for the refund button hidden 3 menus deep. that's fucked i swear. from that i probably lost 10 customers and gained my reputation as a chinaman.

then afterwards yan wanted to teach me english. i mean fuck la okay? i told her "when the customer leaves, say "thanks maam or thank you sir"" in chinese. then she replied "what did you just say?". i said "thanks maam or thank you sir". then she said "you learn what english in singapore? it's sank you sir, not wat wat tank you". fuck you la chinawoman. sank your sankgina la. (the whole transaction is in chinese, except for the thank you/sank you parts)

then after that there's two black nissan gtr in the station with the same license plate (something like 6333). i told yan that there's two nice cars, exactly the same, with the same license plate. then she said "can't you see that the first 3 letters (SJJ and SNU) are different". fuck la you think i'm stupid or blind or what?

today is fucking shattered man. fucking shattered. i felt like punching her in the face man. now i know why june dislikes her. goshdarnmeat :(

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i saw 6th month's **** today by accident :( it's disappointing. i also brushed past her *** a few times, it's not bad. but nevermind because i'm a face person i dont care that much about body :D i mean, it's good to be able to fly aeroplanes right?

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$900 for a freelance-no-time-restrictions-create-7-configurations,build-them,and-set-them-up-in-a-corporate-network job is too good to be true. there must be some hidden catch somewhere when i'm done with it =/

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add-in-board partners earn alot. i think i want to start a company for that

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"wah~!", says june. lool.

wow it seems customers have been continually offended like weee :D

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hey seriously if you think you're so fucking important that i have to obey every single command from you like a slave, go fuck yourself okay? ohhh, so pitiful :( - but too bad, i don't care about nobodies like you.

here, take it :D ()----- what is it? it's a needle - for you to burst your bubble because ~~you're~~ it's so thick words can't penetrate rofl.

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i really don't give a fuck about kids, especially sissyboy kids. i haven't given my new rig much attention since the hols, much less you.

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june is my favorite month because it contains my birthday. my favorite month has a set of beautiful eyes and a nice tongue :(

i ~~intentionally~~ lost my phone for almost 2 weeks lool.

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hello jensen :D hows cossacks? ahah i havent tried it :( can't wait though. oh yar audiosurf was dam fun :D

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Here's a simple explanation about basic RAM timings.

RAMs process memory in the following main stages:
1) Row Address Strobe
2) RAS-to-CAS Latency
3) Column Access Strobe
4) CAS Latency

Reading the memory format:
5-5-5-12
CAS-TRCD-TRP-TRAS

CAS = Column Address Strobe
Timing delay before RAM starts a read command after receiving it.

RAS = Row Address Strobe

TRCD = Time: RAS-to-CAS Delay
Timing delay before CAS signal is received after RAS.

TRP = Time: RAS-Precharge
Timing delay before termination of row access for access of another.

TRAS = Active to Precharge
Timing delay between getting a memory bank ready for access and closing it.

Command Rate = DRAM Command Rate
Clock for timing the RAM:FSB ratio. T1 will result in synchrous operation.

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hello my chinese-speaking female clone. stop teasing me :(

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wow june, wow

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exactly like the ones in school..

uhh cool.

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wtf. worked fine till this motherfucker mission halfway through which took 5 mins to load. 2fps slideshow wtf. whoever's computer can run that shit on max settings is obviously gay/nerd/retarded.

edit: omg i just got it to run, at a not-so-slideshow speed. shit i just scolded myself.

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crysis? dx10? max settings? native resolution?

chey no kick la~...

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everything is so fucking amazing on this system except for the audio. damn. the low pci latency on my mobo is having an adverse effect on the sound. because the slot refresh so quickly, there's is a very very tiny hiss that goes on and off in a sine wave motion. wtf :( ultra high sensitivity audio anyone?

edit: lol fixed it. changed the refresh rate from 80nanoseconds to 160nanoseconds

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racedriverGRID is mindblowing wtfooo

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wow i think mr yong fook seng is a nice guy after all.

anyway.

i'm blogging on my new system now, here's the specs: (oh how boring)

(sorted in no order rofl)
- msi neo2-fr
- core2duo e7200
- palit/xpertvision radeon hd4750
- team xtreem dark 800mhz 1gb x 2
- aerocool horsepower 500w modular
- windows vista home premium
- creative xtremegamer
- razer diamondback
- coolermaster centurion 5
- compaq low-profile keyboard
- samsung syncmaster 931bw 19" tftlcd
- altec lansing atp3
- alessandro ms-1

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actually, fuck that 12 marks la okay. even if i get full marks for this exam i'll still have other shit to combine and yong fook seng obviously gave me -5% for class participation so who the fuck cares. i just want my computer now so i can indulge in my wonderland. fuck all these studies shit.

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this is the correct logic circuit

that's 1/20000 seconds of difference and potentially 12 marks. can you see why im feeling so fucked now?

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i'm so fucking angry because:
1) i connected D0D1D2 to Q0Q1Q2 resulting in a 0.00005s delay
3) i predict that yong fook seng will give me zero marks and tell me that a 0.00005 second delay can cause a whole machine to explode so I'M SO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S NOT ABOUT GETTING A OR DISTINCTION. IT'S ABOUT GETTING FULL FUCKING MARKS AND I WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE ARGH. SAME SHIT HAPPENED TO CKT AND NOW DFUND FUCK LAR CHEEBYE. I TOLD MY MUM I HAVE A FEELING IM GETTING FULL MARKS FOR CKT AND DFUND SO SHE WAS HAPPY FOR THE WHOLE DAY. HOW THE FUCK WILL SHE FEEL IF I SHOWED HER 92 MARKS ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

okay i know she'll still be happy but i dont feel good about it............... lool. i'm a hot girl thx

okay to make me feel better, something strange just happened.

that's way over my pay lool. i have a feeling it'll disappear soon :(

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you dont really have to simplify the entire boolean expression for ABC'+D to implement the circuit using 2 nand inputs.

ABC'+D = ((((((AB)')')(C'))')(D'))'

using CAD to rebuild my circuit, as well as generate the truth tables, i found that my half-simplified boolean equation satisfies the 2 nand ttl requirements. i fully simplified the boolean equation i used to experiment and i found that i ended up with the exact same thing before i simplified it. oh well.

btw using cad, here's the answers:
a) A+B'C=Z
b)

a	b	c	out
0	0	0	0
0	0	1	1
0	1	0	0
0	1	1	0
1	0	0	1
1	0	1	1
1	1	0	1
1	1	1	1

A2
b)
P = (a'+b).(a+b')'+da'b
= a'b

a	b	d	out
0	0	0	0
0	0	1	0
0	1	0	1
0	1	1	1
1	0	0	0
1	0	1	0
1	1	0	0
1	1	1	0

b1
a)
ABD' = M2

a	b	c	d	out
0	0	0	0	0
0	0	0	1	0
0	0	1	0	0
0	0	1	1	0
0	1	0	0	0
0	1	0	1	0
0	1	1	0	0
0	1	1	1	0
1	0	0	0	0
1	0	0	1	0
1	0	1	0	0
1	0	1	1	0
1	1	0	0	1
1	1	0	1	0
1	1	1	0	1
1	1	1	1	0

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HAHAHA FUCK HAHAHAHA. here's the answer. note the teal colored part. click for full view.

to better illustrate how the teal part activates CLR when D0D1D2 = 101:

EDIT: FUCKING SHIT I REALIZED THE NAND GATE IS CONNECTED TO D1D2D3. THE PAPER SAYS OUTPUT OF DIGITAL SYSTEM, NOT OUTPUT OF MEMORY REGISTER CLUSTER WTF LAR CHEEBYE. change the 3 connections to D1 D2 D3 instead of Output1 Output2 Output3 and it's fine. BUT WTF?!?!?!?

EDIT: fucked up to a catastrophic level i tell you. i hope the teacher is blind or lenient. fucking shit i tell you. the only difference between the my submitted system (o0o1o2) and the correct system (d0d1d2) is a 1/20khz = 0.00005seconds of delay for CLR function. FUCK?!

edit: i'm so fucking prepared to lose all 12 marks for that question because yong fook seng is a prick and he hates me

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dfund used to be fun but now it's 1111₁₆-U-1100_16-K-ing boring man (<-- change all binary numbers to hex lool) :( okay time to bathe and OMFG NO MORE EXAMS MWAHAH... ----- i realized my dream is stupid. dreaming to be a computer engineer is like dreaming to be a poor bastard. there's seriously so many engineers out there and indian/china engineers are better and more stable. i have a feeling after graduation from the university i'll be unable to find a well paying >2.5k job (okay i'm cheap, so what lol) and i'll end up managing a petrol station lol (a typical franchisee earns 13k per month :D).

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yknow i was planning to dedicate the 1000th entry (this one's the 999th) for pq (710g) but hell after the discovery of some disturbing shit i decided not to :D maybe i'll give the honor to my msineo2fr+e7200, teamxtreem800mhz1gbx2, xpertvisionhd4850 baby in 7 days time and countingggg... or maybe i'll forever be blogging on this one entry and set some kind of new record for the longest, hand-typed, non-copy and paste blog entry ever. who knows ;)

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this is seriously the longest ever blog post in my blog rofl. i mean, 25145 characters in a single post rofl.

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exam's tomorrow and i've not touched a single book the entire week. i seriously forgot everything. i just opened the maths book and closed it 15 secs later. man im so sianed i dont even feel like reading anything now. in fact i want to play mass effect LOL. somehow i'm just gonna remember things when i see the questions so no worries.. (self comfort thanks)

okay time to play mass effect :D

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i just realized something really cool. transformers can be used backwards too. using the 220v to 15v transformer we have, we can connect it upsidedown so it goes 220v to 3226v rofl. yes 3226v not a typo lol. human skin is approx 1megaohms so that'll induce like 3.2milliamperes, sadly :(. but then again 13milliamperes can stop your heart so that's good enough. maybe i can connect the end of the 3226v to another 15v and the output would be uh... 44366v. now we're talking :D

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i'm going to purchase my new ~~girlfriend~~ computer right after the exams. it's settled. wtf i've been saying this since sec5 lol. i miss the uber no-life 24/7 gaming feeling :(

right after i get the system i'm gonna...

1) LISTEN TO MY MS-1 HEADPHONES OMFG
2) replay call of duty 4 loool...
3) replay mass effect
...

edit: omg i realized i have not much games now. shit. okay its alright diablo3, starcraft2 and spore are gona get released "soon" and the desktop will "not" be obsolete by then. damn everytime i try to think of what im gona use my new desktop for, i dont feel like buying it anymore rofl. the only thing the desktop has a clear advantage over my current setup is the gaming aspect, and there's nothing to play now omfg :(

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thanks i'm doing well :D:D:D very well ahah

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mass effect is like the bestest game since call of duty 4. it's buggy as hell but WTF the entire thing is so well put together i'll still play it with 10 times the bugs man wtf.

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4x4 matrix determinant HAHAHA

fux u :(

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...okay that's where my penknife went

anyway i think i'm in really deep shit. i havent been studying the entire holiday ("study break"). damn. and i cant find my phone lol it's in my bag somewhere and im lazy to dig it

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THE-PRIZE-IS-SCARY, sianed O.O

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THE PRIZE IS REAL ROFLMAO

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4 or 2 days left to claim the prize. i mean it's theoretically so easy so why am i so scared of it LOL. you know it depends little on what message i convey verbally, but what message my body language conveys.

anyway i went back to church and the feeling was overwhelming. i dont know what to do. i want to commit but i dont know if i really want to.

on the other hand, went back to read megan's blog and i realized how loserish i was acting rofl. i mean, other than R, she's my perfect childhood fantasy rofl. sometimes i wish i was a greater person back then.

a final note, i think i need more patient friends like the ones i have right now. i get so irritating, arrogant, rash and defensive sometimes. it's so easy to tell myself that i want to change but i've just only become half as irritating as i was in sec 1.

feeling pretty random now. i guess some of the things i say make people think that i look down on them, so they want to "prove" me wrong by opposing everything i say with every opportunity. if you're reading this and you think i am arrogant and self-righteous, i apologise. i don't think i'm smarter than anyone else in the class. i don't look down on anyone - in fact i look up to most of you classmates. if we somehow ended up here, we must be equal in some way or another. if i gave you such a negative impression, i apologise. i know i'm irritating and i say things that are cold, offensive, over the limit and lame. if you find yourself a victim of my failed humor, i apologise. if i did something unright to you or you can't stand the way im doing something, please tell me, but before that - i sincerely apologise.

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there's something really strange about gates

if you take an "and" gate and feed it 2 inverted inputs, you'll get a "nor"
if you take an "or" gate and feed it 2 inverted inputs, you'll get a "nand"
if you take a "nand" gate and feed it 2 inverted inputs, you'll get an "or"
if you take a "nor" gate and feed it 2 inverted inputs, you'll get an "and"

i think it's got something to do with demorgan's

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[fictional shit, thx :D]

"hey there miss! it seems there's something about you that's just so unique... i will not be coming to this stop for quite a while, but before I "disappear", just wanna get to know the girl behind those beautiful eyes of yours... friends?"

staring deep into her eyes, these were the exact words i told her at that very morning. she smiled back and...

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little could i imagine, this is a NOT gate (aka inverter)

and sounding half as scary as it looks, that's an OR gate

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HAHAOMGWTF

as you guys know, a bit is a single binary digit

and 8 bits make a "byte"

so how did they come up with the word "byte"? as you would have noticed, "byte" sounds strikingly similar to "bite", and it's not a coincidence

funny as hell, groups of 2 bits are called "tydbits"

a groups of 4-bits are called "nybbles"

groups of 16-bits are called "playtes"

and groups of 32-bits are called "dynners" <-- HAHAHAHAHA OMFG ----- 5 days left to claim the prize. maybe 3 days. ----- 6 days left to claim the prize. unfortunately something else is worrying me much because i'm sure you're as "convinced" as me that it's just menstrual cramps. i'll be fucking happy if i'm wrong but what if i'm not and you die? ----- 7 days left to claim the prize. ----- i've been convinced to go ahead with my plans. forget profits, forget reputation, forget self. i have 8 days left. ----- he can make himself look like a good guy but im gonna do his dirty job so he owes me as much as i can make him ----- "advances are made by answering questions. discoveries are made by questioning answers." bernhard haisch ----- it's scary that a horsepower is equivalent to 745.7 watts. a ferrari dishes out a freaking 492162 watts... wtf? if that amount of power is used to drive 3 amps of charge around a circuit (just like how our power supply project is capable of), it would be pushed by 164054volts of electromotive force omfg ----- im in love with june because she is so hot and she really knows how to make kelvie a happy boy. she is 2 years older, very capable, smart, tomboy, loud, emoexpressive, sexciting and i like to eat soft rice. other than the fact that she speaks chinese all the time and i can't understand her, she's soo perfect :D ricola girl on the other hand left me a jar of ricola :( consolation prize? HAHA. except that there's a note in there and im not telling you what it is neh neh ni poopsie.

working environment is so much better than school la seriously :D

oh ya did i mention that i think angela is so lovely, mature and nice :D ok i shouldnt say more or else daryl dun fwen me and james will beat me :(

anyway here's dss and i better remember this because i'll be tested :(
1) in the morning there will be a long summary and a short batch
2) take the batch and staple it with the (useless) second batch's last page
3) photocopy. original for 7-11, copy for my mum
4) check media totals, settlements, vouchers
i) for visa related total is obtained by adding the first page's total figure with the redemption and the second page's total figure.
ii) debit figure is for cashcard payment
iii) largest figure in nets settlement is for nets
5) confirm and close media totals
6) create dss report
7) photocopy long summary. original for 7-11 (stapled to another useless paper), copy for mum
8) when dss is done, print landscape.
9) when print is done, enable wetstock monitors and reprint
10) check that tapu (lol funny word) is not more than +-200litres and the figures below it are all zeroes
11) close dss
12) check bank in totals. be very careful :(. common causes of evil bank in totals are from nets etc. highlight and write report
13) when closing is done, take summary and cross check with escape settlement (10 to 14)
14) staple bills to bill statements
15) write 1.50 fv to stock take
16) write sales (6) to stock take
17) file totals, sign, wait for courier to arrive at 9
18) accept all praises because im so great

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allaboutcircuits is for going ahead of the class, not for catching up. if you need to do catching up and all you have is allaboutcircuit, you're in deep shit.

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i am my mum and my boss's life investment. time to pull up my damned socks. i am playing life on easy mode so i better play it well.

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nb saw that ricola girl today again and she scammed me wtf :@ :@ :@ chao scammer... nnh mans~ :(

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you're just another deluded loser. you're oh-so-great and everyone owes you a damned living. you love creating problems because that's your ~~only~~ talent. bloody liability. i look down on you.

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i saw connie talbot sing on tv and it was like omfg? her voice is so frking beautiful :(

and then there's this blind small girl called noboyuki tsuji who can play any piano piece after hearing it once. omfg :(

and fug i missed the 710 girl yesterday by 30 seconds omfg ofmgomfg bloody 31. im determined to reach the bus stop at 7:00am every monday, wednesday and friday to take the same bus as her HAHAH :(

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God has a very unique way of motivating me to go to school. he makes a chiobu enter the lift from 13th floor daily at 7:00am and another manjusri chiobu (who takes 31, 32 and 33 omfg im a stalker) at the bus stop at 7:10am.

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just when dfund is becoming ridiculously shitty it starts to get so fun. flip flops are like omfg :D dfund is fund!!

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june came to me today to tell me some "good" news but though it was "good" it was a little disappointing rofl.

anyway there's some ricola salesgirl in my station the entire day and she's very hot. i kept staring at her and she kept staring at me... so horny.

anyway x2 i think jane (not to be confused with june) hates me :( but nvm got june can already.

anyway x3 i spent the entire day doing stock taking and despite the daily checks by the till2 cashiers i somehow found these expired shit. (yes everything in view has expired, including those on the table and in the basket)

lol if you're gonna call me "slow", make sure i don't find more expired goods than you did in the entire month.

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shit why am i so smart :( next time i'll try not to be so brilliant :(

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omg june is coming to stay in my house in my room for 2 years omfg <33... i mean </33

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(Kelvin the hardware geek fitted this entire post into an SMS LOL)

A reference $1098 14.1" ASUS X80LE running on Vista Home Basic (Vista's XP Home Edition equivalent) comes with T5250@1.5GHz, 2GB Memory, 160GB internal harddisk and SM drive.

Assuming that the said system costs ~+-$1000, trading a gigabyte of RAM for an upgrade to T5300@1.73GHz is a good deal seeing that a gigabyte of RAM costs only $34 in SLS.

Be warned, though, the system runs on X3100 integrated graphics. Despite impressive on-paper specifications, the X3100 is INCAPABLE of running graphics intensive applications like GPU accelerated rendering and games (even old classics like Warcraft 3 will lag). If gaming is a necessity, go for a system with at least a basic 8400M GS or 9300M G.

From the specifications, the system is likely targetted towards the office crowd. It features high connectivity and a bright anti-glare LCD, is lightweight, thin and lasts for more than 4 hours on default clocks. As long as gaming and rendering is not involved, this system will be a dream.

If the main aim of getting the system is gaming/rendering and portability is not important, ~$1000 can get you a desktop with the following specifications:

- MSI NEO2-FR Mainboard
- E2220@3.6GHz (Overclock)
- XpertVision nVidia GeForce 9600GT 512MB
- 2GB Kingston PC6400/800MHz
- Seagate Barracuda 7200RPM 500GB
- CoolerMaster Centurion 5 Chassis
- AeroCool 500W Modular Power
- Windows Vista Home Premium

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allied : axis
hwz : vrz
icc : ugto
gdi : nod
nvidia : ati
intel : amd
microsoft : mac

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i chipped my fingernails trying to neaten the PSU rails in my dad's new system. it paid off cuz it looks really good now. woopee :D

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i officially sponsored and assembled all computers in the house bwahaha

i gave...

dad:
pentium d 925
verudium powerxt480
centurion 534
radeon x1950pro 512mb (<-- wtf??) sis: amd athlon x4000 centurion 5 asus m2npv hipro 300w geforce7300le kingston 533 1024mb im feeling generous :D ----- i love saturdays and sundays. normally i wouldn't like working(; not even for the money), but this is not like a job to me. this is instead a chance to see the world bare naked, and to make love to unseen realities and lose my virginity of innocence. no other job opened my eyes as much as this. ----- your pitiful facade isn't working anymore (not like it has ever worked since you never had friends). you act like the whole world's forsaken you but you're your only forsaker. i look down on you, and so does everyone else. thanks for showing me the epitome of a loser, loser :) ----- the devil is obviously trying to tempt me. it's really not funny. my dad just gave me a wad of cash (like $400) and im supposed to get xpertvision n73pv, 2x1gb 800mhz rams and a 160gb hdd for him. fuck. when im trying to avoid sim lim suddenly my dad (who likes to buy hardware himself because he doesnt trust me HAHA) asks me to choose parts for his upgrades. wtf. i must resist ----- daryl i'd like to apologise for everything i've said and done to you in the past. i'm ashamed to talk to you now. i've always been an insecure bastard saying nasty things and putting you down so that i look better. all along blinded by my self-obsession, i've treated you like you're inferior to me despite the fact that you've always been the more capable, friendly, matured and attractive person. you've always listened to my braggings even though you aren't interested in most of them (o2jam, videogames etc). you made me feel like a special individual. you're the person that tolerated me the longest yet i always took you for granted. without you i would have been a friendless bastard for most part of the last 4 years. thanks for being such an amazing bastard :) ----- the devil is fucking trying to tempt me damnit

noo i shall buy my system next month. you can't make me buy XPERTVISION 4850 at an ~~irresistable~~ very resistable $249

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after so many reiterations, i've finalized the rig for next month:

MSI P35 NEO2-FR + E7200 ~$367
AeroCool 500W Modular ~$99
PowerColor HD4850 ~$273
Kingston PC6400/800MHz 2GB ~$61
Vista Home Premium ~$124
Creative XtremeGamer
320GB Seagate Barracuda
Centurion 5

$924 (it's probably gona get cheaper by then lol.)

E7200 2.533ghz default stock clock will run at approx an overclocked E2220 at 3ghz, or an E6750 at default clocks. changing the hsf in the future will allow OC for E7200 to hit 4ghz at 1.5vcore.

then after getting the rig i'll have a wad of spare cash to buy a high end DAC...NYAHAHAHA. it seems ben's the only guy who really understand why i spend so much on audio equipment ahah.

now to find someone to follow me... :D

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fuck i just got so psychologically damaged argh

i was playing some first-person shooter in the dark when some bug landed on my mousepad. i felt my mouse feets getting quite sticky and my mouse's tracking became irregular but i didn't care. after like 3 minutes some stuff stuck to my thumb so i turned on the light and discovered it was some sort of leg. i went back to my mousepad to find legs and body parts of all sorts of color all over it argh. the worst fucking thing is that the upper half of the bug is still alive and stuck in my mouse's ir optics. i nearly fucking threw up damnit.

i think i want to burn myself to make up for the pain i've caused

i feel so mentally impaired now. im so guilty fuck damnit

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still the 999th post rofl i just kept editing

neo2fr + e2220 = $321 (fuwell)
(best overclocking motherboard + best overclockable budget core of e2x series)

2gb kingston 800mhz = $61 (pct)
(standard mainstream 800mhz, 2gb. enough to overclock processor to ((800/2)/(800/4))*2400mhz=4800mhz or 4.8ghz roflmao (equivalent to ~9ghz pentium D, and ~12ghz pentium 4 ROFL). if i have the skill to keep parameters stable past 3.5ghz at stock cooling lol.)

note:
perf per clock ratio of c2d:pdc:pd:p4 = 1:1:2:3.5

powercolor/asus/xpertvision 4850 512 = $273 (pct)
(mainstream rv770 mid range)

vista home premium = $124 (pct)
(=()

aerocool 500w modular = $99 (pct/fuwell)
(budget modular)

sgate barracuda 320gb = already have
(main disk)

xtremegamer = already have
(mainstream consumer sound solution)

cm5 = already have
(budget secc chassis)

total = fucking high end gamer's computer only $878

holy shit :D compare that with some shitty overpriced setup you see from online retailers HAHA. im gonna wait till august so i wont look like a bastard who spends everytime he has money.

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frankly speaking this is the noobiest bullshit i've seen today
click

Q: what is anti-aliasing?
noob1: it only works with newer games
(anti-aliasing has been widespread in gaming since like uhh... your grandma's era.)

noob2: better resolution. pole will be straight line instead of being jagged
(it doesn't change your fucking resolution. pole? what pole? pole up your ass?)

noob3: makes image more round. like tomb raider figure will be less square
(LOL. anti-aliasing does not change polygons. it is a form of post processing. if your mum's figure is square in a photograph, anti-aliasing will not do shit to it)

fuck you please lol. 3 responses from hardwarezone posters and all sound like noobullshit.

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what a beautiful dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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seriously can someone tell me which is more accurate please?

100 million people in a city, 5% growth in population per year. find population after 50 years

basic:
100 x 1.05^50 = 1146.74 million people

exponential:
100 x e^(0.05*50) = 1218.25 million people

$500 in a bank, 10% compound annual interest. find balance after 20 years

basic:
500 x 1.1^20 = $3363.75

exponential:
500 x e^(0.1*20) = $3694.53

in a scenario where rate and duration is known, isn't it more accurate to use basic maths instead of exponential function?

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[new development roflmao]

come on lah. it was already a stupid enough move for you to steal cash from my till for 3 shifts in a row. i seriously didn't expect you, a 3 year cashier veteran, to be dull enough to present the $55 scratchcard ticket you stole from my till as your own the next day.

you so fucking owned yourself.

sorry but unlike the other careless kids whom you preyed on, i'm not working there because i can't find a job and am in need of money; i'm working there for management experience. im working there to have my eyes opened. i dont need to learn the pumps, the registers, the settlements, the veeder root, the remar. i need to learn people like you.

don't forget that my mother, your boss, is the station manager of the top shell kiosk in singapore. if you think you can frame me and profit: i laugh at your pitiful efforts. do you really think i'm as naive and innocent inside as my lack of social development restricts me to look and act? sorry but i'm a scheming fucker, and i know my kind well :D

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mb and proc
neo 2 fr + e2220 = $307

os
home premium = $124

ram
kingston 800mhz 2gb = $62

psu
aerocool 500w modular = $99

gpu
xpv geforce 9600gt = $179

spu
xtremegamer = already have

chassis
cm5 = already have

storage
320gb + 500gb seagate = already have

optical
tsstcorp supermulti = already have

total $771

that's a complete system, my overclocking dream system :O, and i have enough but i don't seem to want to buy it anymore wtf

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$1.2k for 11 days of work is really not bad :D

and the girl who works at bukit batok avenue 4 block 272 coffee shop eng kee cuisine stall is very pretty :O

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this is my 999th blog post, so im gonna keep on editing it til i have something worthy of the 1000th :D.

tomorrow i'm gonna be the ambassador of my station for an inspection. i will be tested on the following:

where is the assembly point?
the space opposite autobac.

in case of fire within premises, what should be done?
1) shut off main oil valve
2) break incoming power circuit
3) call for fire brigade
4) evacuate staff and clients
5) attempt to control fire with extinguisher if possible

if a transportation vessel catches fire, what should be done?
1) remove driver from vessel and keep clients out of the heatzone
2) attempt to push the vessel away from flammables if possible
3) call for fire brigade
4) control fire with extinguisher, keeping position upwind
5) spray extinguisher into slightly-opened bonnet or any holes where available
(do NOT fully open the bonnet)

if an oil tanker catches fire, what should be done?
1) stop production flow
2) if tanker is loading, hit emergency stop
3) break incoming power circuit
4) evacuate clients from premises
5) call for fire brigade
6) attempt to extinguish flame if safe
7) if hazard is resolved, control further oil spill with spill kit

if a staff catches fire, what should be done?
1) force the victim onto the ground and roll
2) extinguish with red can or extinguisher
3) call for ambulance
4) cool wound(s) with blue pack. if injury is extensive, roll victim onto stretcher and place him/her in tub
(do NOT remove burnt clothing stuck on victim)

easy peasy man :D shift manager by next month? no problem ;) anyway got my first tip from a client today ahah, it's about 100 and im high

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edit: got my phone back. joystick wasn't changed. camera button wasn't changed (and it probably got damaged during "repair" because now it's stiffer than a cock). mspd cover wasn't changed. was charged for antenna cover which i don't even need. service charge is $40. i really can't be bothered. perhaps the service at wisma atria is better.

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oh yes i havent blogged about how fucked up sony ericsson service centre was ;)

remember i said i was going to collect my phone on friday? well i went there and the cant-be-bothered-about-anything guy said my phone wasnt ready because "the repair fees increased and they couldn't proceed without my consent". rose by $17 (totalling to $142. i can buy a DAC with the money i pay for 3 pieces of plastic, aka "original housing", for my phased out k750i)

okay no problem. i told them i agree with the fees and they can proceed with the job. the guy actually tried to call me at 4pm (i'm supposed to reach at 5pm) to ask for my consent but my phone was not available (it's with them, duh). i thought they would start the job immediately and i would be able to collect my phone on the spot but NO WTF I HAVE TO WAIT "a few more days" lol.

the guy asked me for an alternate contact but i couldn't remember my mum's number. i also have no house phone, btw. he didn't pursue me further after i told him that. before leaving, i asked him when exactly do i come to collect my phone. his reply was, "we will call you". fuck you, understand? (if you didn't get that, reread from the prev paragraph)

i cant believe that my favorite phone brand offers fucking substandard service. not only do i have to pay a fucking unbelievable price for phone housing (AKA "CASING"), i have to wait more than a fucking week for it to be done and i get a fucking stupid and ignorant arrogant kid (probably 3 years older than me) serving me. stupid people don't piss me off, stupid and proud people do. i wonder how "experienced" people like him could get a service-centered job and hardwarezone regulars like me couldn't even land a pcshow booth because i was "inexperienced".

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你让我一次又一次地爱上你。我不知该如何摆脱你的掌控之中。

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你老实告诉我,你会不会觉得我是你快乐家庭的一个障碍?我总觉得我是个破坏家庭的坏人.

2008-06-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

shit man this month's allowance is like disappearing

+$50 (brought forward)
+$350 (new allowance)
-$50 (cm5)
-$20 (food)
-$20 (food and lan)
-$20 (second dance mat)
-$120 (phone housing)

i'm left with $170 :(
$180 tech allowance: $180 - $50 - $20 - $120 = -$10 (shit)
$120 food allowance: $120 - $20 - $20 = $80
$50+$50 brought forward: $100

100 + 80 - 10 = $170
okay it tabulates. steaming meatball.

2008-06-08T18:27:00.004+08:00

i've decided. my life is so miserable without my cans. i'm gonna get citypulse or firestone fubar3 next month :D:D:D

2008-06-08T17:04:00.000+08:00

i've landed myself a job. it'll start on monday. $_$

2008-06-05T13:15:00.000+08:00

a = b
a^2 = ab
a^2 + a^2 = a^2 + 2ab
2a^2 = 2ab = a^2 - ab
2(a^2-ab) = 1(a^2-ab)
2 = 1

2008-06-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

i attempted to study capacitors and i feel quite fucked HAHA time to play worldinconflict

2008-06-01T21:39:00.004+08:00

it's late and my heart is heavy haha. spent the entire day playing through halo 1, half-life 2 episode 2 and call of duty 4 campaigns yesterday.

went out with my mum in the morning today. played soulstorm and ddr for the rest of the day. haven't touched a book yet =/

okay let's hope i pass. i'll work hard on the next test... =/

2008-05-31T18:33:00.001+08:00

i wish i have a big store room of some sort for me to store all my shit. there's so many things i dont need but can't bear to throw

2008-05-30T18:55:00.002+08:00

i dont want to enter my room today. after this post im gonna stay out of my fucking messy room unless its necessary or to sleep.

2008-05-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

really had no mood to buy anything in the morning but going past sim lim square turned me on so much that i bought cm5 HAHA

behold =)

2008-05-29T08:45:00.002+08:00

my allowance is in, but i found that i've lost the mood for spending =X maybe i'll wait till the end of the IT fair to hoot my rig :D

i'm bringing $2 to school today. i'll see if i can survive haha

2008-05-28T19:45:00.006+08:00

I have many things to blog about, but I just can't get my mind to think about anything other than my shopping list :D omfgyay

Approximate Spare Cash per month = $300 - ( $6 x 20 days ) = $180

June: Spare Cash + ThePCShow = ~$480
- Coolermaster Centurion 5 Black $69
- MSI Neo2-FR $199
- Pentium DC E2180 $103
- 2GB Kingston PC6400/800MHz RAM $64

July: Spare Cash + Brought Forward = $180 + $49 = ~$225
- XpertVision GeForce 9600GT $159

August: Spare Cash + Brought Forward = $180 + $66 = ~$246
- Hauppage! HVR-1300 $165
- 2GB Kingston PC6400/800MHz RAM $64

September: Spare Cash + Brought Forward = $180 + $17 = ~$197
- Windows Vista Home Premium OEM $127

Yes you heard me right. If Microsoft decides to void my HP-OEM license after I replace my faulty motherboard, I will jolly well pirate till I have spare cash. =)

Estimated total expenditure by October:
Food - $480
Techshit - $950

By now my general specifications would be:
Chassis - CoolerMaster Centurion 5
Power Supply Unit - Verudium PowerXT480
Monitor - Samsung SyncMaster 931BW
Mainboard - MSI Neo2-FR
Processor - Pentium DC E2180
RAM - 2 x 2GB Kingston PC6400/800MHz
Tuner - Hauppauge! HVR-1300
Hard-Disk Drive - 2 x 500GB Seagate Barracuda 7200RPM
Graphics Processing Unit - XpertVision GeForce 9600GT
Sound Processing Unit - Creative XtremeGamer
Headphones - Alessandro MS-1
Speakers - Altec Lansing ATP3
Operating System - Windows Vista Home Premium OEM
Keyboard - Low Profile Compaq Standard
Mouse - Razer Diamondback / eXactMat
Modem - Motorola SB5100
Router - Linksys WRT54G

2008-05-27T09:47:00.003+08:00

im surprised at the sheer number of people who thinks i'm blogging about them HAHA. strange but the person i'm blogging about doesn't know it's him ahaha. i mean, why worry right? you haven't done anything behind my back... unless.... =p

anyway i forgot to shave for the 3rd day in a row. haha. shit. anyway it's good-hair-day woohoo. but the sad thing is that my shirt got dyed red but it looks cool anyway.

edit: OMFG I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT SOMETHING HAHAHAHA. cant help but to smile at your success. CONGRATS BOONSIANG!!! i knew you could do it. you're just too hot :D:D. to hell with the 6 months thing ahahah i never believed in it. always had faith in you! grats grats grats :D:D

2008-05-27T08:15:00.001+08:00

don't worry if you have fear of holes!

2008-05-26T21:59:00.010+08:00

i thought i was the fakest person around till i met you. we could have been great friends if i was a little dumber, but i guess i'll have to burst your bubble here. you're a professional hypocrite, and so am i :D i'm your kind; you can't fool me. sorry but i've become a little more wary :) you've failed to earn my sympathy

2008-05-26T20:41:00.006+08:00

i miss my desktop. i complained that denise was a money sucker but i spent more money on my desktop than her. after all it's still the only thing that knows me best. im a computer engineer for fuck's sake, im gonna save it.

after a thorough analysis i found that both rams are fried, as well as the ram slots for whatever damned reason. a few capacitors have already turned brown. how the fuck did that happen over the week when i didn't even turn it on. since my motherboard and processors are cheapskate i can shift all working parts over to a new motherboard.

my verudium powerxt480 psu, tsstcorp sm ls dvdram, 2x500gb seagate barracuda 7200rpm hdd, xpertvision radeon x1950pro, creative xgamer, al atp3, alessandro ms-1, syncmaster 931bw, diamondback and literally everything apart from my radeon xpress200 and 2x1gb 533mhz kingstons should work fine. fuck i've been planning to buy msi neo2fr and e2160 since like forever; it's about time i bought it. together with a cheapskate casing like coolermaster centurion 5 with no casemods and all my fucking expensive computer fans i should be able to overclock my computer past e6750 speeds at sub-celeron costs :D:D:D:D. hooray.

last time i checked, i would have to spend $550 for those. but since it's been months the pricing will be something like 290 for neo2fr and e2180, 70 for 2x1gb kingston 800mhz rams and 68 for cm5, totalling up to 428. not as big a drop as i had expected. oh well. but then again if i was able to save $400 for my beautiful ass lcd, $400 for my graphics card and $600 for both my psps last year, $428 is nothing, right? :D.

anyway, my rig was supposed to be finalized by march but buying 2 psp slims really fucked the schedule. now that school's on it'll be really difficult to save.

each meal in school is approximately $3 (basic food + coffee). i'll spend $6 * 21 = $126 each month if i don't play lan and spend like my mum's an ATM. with transport subsidized, i'll have $174 each month so it'll take...3 MONTHS WTF?! im so discouraged hell i give up on my comp argh im so sad please hug me now please please

sorry for the language i really need some release. but still, hug me please. hug hug hug please thx

2008-05-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

i swear i feel so fucked up now. my room is in a fucking mess. my fever is making me a fucking mess. my desktop is fried and i fucking spent 3 hours trying to resit every fucking component in it to no avail. people start showing their true colors. i fucked up my ckt. ants are all over my room. i havent changed my bedsheets. my floor is dusty and sticky. my hi-fi got fucked up because of the rain. i swear im so fucking hell paranoid now argh. i wish someone would hug me and tell me everything's gonna be okay

2008-05-26T06:48:00.001+08:00

havent blogged for some time so... here's an entry... lol

2008-05-24T17:47:00.004+08:00

it seems that every time i talk to this particular person, i get so fucking irritated. the conversations seem so long winded, draggy, unnecessary, melodramatic, paranoid, stupid, childish and whatnot.

2008-05-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

lol i ordered something from play-asia today, guess what is it :D

okay here's a clue... pearl's gona be soooooooo jealous HAHAHA nehnehnipoopoo

2008-05-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

if you don't feel fucking SONG~ about today, you're not human :D

2008-05-18T09:22:00.006+08:00

oh, oh, and how "normal" tuesday is will be dependent on today's queensway meeting, sexciting!

2008-05-18T09:19:00.001+08:00

i dont know if anyone realizes this but whenever i say "bastard sia!~!", it's a good thing. it's like one of the best praises you can give someone in st pats, but i dont know if it's the same case in tp ahaha.

2008-05-17T17:07:00.001+08:00

omfg my dog is back ahahah. first time seeing it in like 5 months or sth.

2008-05-17T16:52:00.002+08:00

a (few) bar(s) of chocolate a day keeps the emo away. 804 should eat more :)

today i found this freaking delicious omgwtf camilleblotch cognac noir chocolatebar in my fridge

the cognac filling in each chocolate piece BURSTS in your mouth with every bite, giving you a pleasant tingling sensation accompanying the smooth taste of the dark chocolate. heavenly :D

apart from that i decided to do something about the irritating coils of wires in my bag. :D:D:D

lab? HIT ME BABY YEAH!~ :D

2008-05-16T19:41:00.002+08:00

"your enemies say the truest things about you"

2008-05-16T19:02:00.003+08:00

anyway i felt damned good about what happened on the way to school this morning

okay here's the scoop:

i hopped down a bus and was rushing home from kallang mrt because i forgot to bring my wrtoral chapter 1.

when i was crossing the road at a crowded junction there was this indian cyclist guy trying to cycle through the crowd.

i decided to give way by moving to the right, and he turned to his left and nearly knocked me down.

he braked and when i walked past him, he grabbed me by the collar with one hand and threatened to beat me up.

i kept quiet and stared at him for about 5 seconds. he then pushed me to the ground in front of everyone.

i stood right back up, dusted and neatened my clothes, and felt fucking good about myself that i didn't punch him or attempt to resist HAHA. the guy just cycled away

2008-05-16T06:06:00.002+08:00

here's a snail :D:D

anw had ept test yesterday!!! took a box with only 1 board in it, so i asked him if each person are supposed to take two boxes, and he said yes so i thought it was group work. halfway through i realized OMFG there's supposed to be 2 boards in each box argh noooo. really panicked my ass off but pearl saved the day with her superhero skills. got future in engineering school sia! zomg just look at how neat it is:

got 8.5/10 omfg :D she did the work of two and BOTH GOT A!!!!

went to watch what happened in vegas after school with nesh, per, koon and his fwens. DAM FUNNY LAH. the seats were revamped, cuz they were smelly and salty the previous time i went there yeaars ago. it's like so big and comfy now :D

never seen century square so empty before lol

then yusof got sad :(

and i have to go bathe now i'm getting late for school lol

2008-05-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

polish polish polish polish polish polish polish polish polish polish

2008-05-16T00:49:00.002+08:00

it's funny how many times i saw the word "rain" this week. it's like when i start to not think about her something must remind me ahaha. and i find it rather amusing

2008-05-16T00:16:00.003+08:00

said so many wrong things today i wont even bother counting lol. it's like i was living in my own thoughts through the entire day. literally every fucking thing i said today either failed to be funny, offended, or both at the same time ahah. the impression of a person can crumble overnight, and here's a living example ahaha.

anyway vomited when i got home. felt really sick the entire day and guess what? i guess i was rofl. feeling like a dying piece of shit now

anyway on the happier side, on may 14th i went home laughing to myself throughout the whole bus journey because it was such a funny day. people in the bus stared but it just made things funnier ahaha. got active when i reached home so i jogged up and down my block about 3 times (sth like 60 floors up and 45 floors down) and got really shagged.

ok actually i need to bathe now bye <33

2008-05-15T09:41:00.003+08:00

i'll always fulfill my part, so when the blaming game begins, i'll be a difficult candidate to blame ;)

2008-05-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

blog blog

ok time to sleep

2008-05-13T00:29:00.005+08:00

okay while waiting for my beautiful hair to dry im gonna blog about today

damn i love typing with my nails cut omfg

anyway haha screwed maths and dfund quiz. the dfund quiz was smelly cheesepie.

followed pearl to meet nicholas after school.

OMFG LAR NICHOLAS <333333

i thought i'd never say this but i found bball quite fun actually rofl

anw went to eat the prata stall opposite of the previous horror prata and i can conclude that simpang prata is still the best and fook how is easily satisfied with sub-standard food. HAHAHA XD. i can see daryl nodding his head now

and then for the first time the person i tried to send home tried to send me. HAHAH strange situation. but so sweet sia someone. OoOoo.

okay going to sleep now nighty

2008-05-11T23:04:00.001+08:00

ohwtf lousy quiz there must be a bug somewhere

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.

You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.

A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you.

And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off.

You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky.

You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

2008-05-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

today was an unexpectedly emotional journey rofl

"Be glad that you have something real to hold on to, because I don't; and that is the biggest regret of my life."

2008-05-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

testing

2008-05-10T16:23:00.004+08:00

here's a cute beetle i found on the way to lab :D

the day before yesterday was ben's fake bday. (my fake bday is tomorrow pls celebrate thx :D)

went to tm early to buy stuffs

we celebrated in the canteen:

then went to watch din and ganesh do backflips. sufi got into a fight with the ground :(.

i went to sit around in the amphitheatre because im ronery :(

then i became fwens with a pretty creeping vine thingy :D

after that went to play lan.

got trashed as usual.

the next day woke up late

rushed to school

met sufi on the bus

went to eat with him ROFL

went to tm and scammed kimkoon

after that went to support tze how:

razor is missing, care

okay im quite sleepy. gona take an afternoon nap

2008-05-09T09:56:00.001+08:00

my school starts at 9am. im still at home LOL

2008-05-08T08:40:00.003+08:00

why is it that everyday someone will say something that implies that im incapable of being serious? do i sound that much of a pushover? why ar? :(

it's not that i cant be angry or what, but wtf is the point of being angry over spilled milo? should i be pissed that my laptop cover got chipped off? should i be angry that my perfect dj max 2 profile got screwed up? should i be angry when someone scratched my psp's ring? should i be angry when people say stupid stuff about me?

please lah my life will be miserable if i get angry or emo about every fucking little thing. just look at how miserable fh's life is.

LOL shh. ok time to go buy ben's present bye bye :D

2008-05-08T08:02:00.005+08:00

skipped lecture. went to the toilet. choked the pipes. yay.

(it's filled to the brim rofl. i flushed one more time before i left. im evil)

stood here for the rest of the lecture

later on went to popeye chicken. really sucked compared to the previous 198721972 times i came. i drew money from the their nets receipt machine

(some guy was looking at me from behind like as if i really did draw money from the nets machine)

then i found a door at a strange location

(im on the second floor. the black part is actually a fountain downstairs)

well anyway, went to watch aeroplanes :D:D

wahahah!!

i'll be back for you some day mr mesh mesh

the funnest shit of the day. pearl didnt blog about it can you believe it >:(

(thats kim koon and his luggage btw :D)

fook how so buay song at t3. he wants to punch me
(scroll there -->)

christine looked really happy because her photo was being taken

i edited away the people with photoshop. pro anot? :D

argh messed up the left side of the shot

still nice lah :(

btw the sky looks really high tech

then there's this ufo thing

then i found the flower i planted 50 years ago. it's quite big and it can move

srsly even the lift looks cool

then there's this nice waterfall thing

then we found some wheelchair pictures i thought would be useful for wrtoral

chao emo kia

this is an excuse to take kim koon's picture

then there's this nice looking building outside

then we decided to act bimbo :D

2008-05-07T09:52:00.002+08:00

blogging in dfund lecture now lol. woke up late today so my hair is quite messed. anyway omgomg something very scary just happened:

OMG OMG OMG OMG can you believe it?

2008-05-07T05:46:00.003+08:00

wow sianz morning. slept 7 hrs and it still feels like i've not got enough sleep rofl. im so hungry. i havent done my maths yet :(. but IM HAPPY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LET'S GO TO SCHOOL~!~!~!~*

2008-05-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

school subjects are actually not quite what i had expected. people are also not quite what i imagined them to be.

(i just washed the dishes so my hand is wrinkly. my nails are sexy tho ;) )

2008-05-06T09:14:00.004+08:00

the following general equation is true in most relationships:

desperation = 1/attractionvalue

stay cool ;) be hard to get

2008-05-05T21:09:00.002+08:00

dun emo liao leh...

*poke poke*

2008-05-05T20:54:00.003+08:00

i'm a happy person. i'm really really happy. i dont know why i look sad or angry all the time rofl.

today im gona sleep early so i can look cheerful to cheer people up :D:D:D

*pop. pop. pop.*

anyway this is so meaningful:

HAHAHA

2008-05-05T06:51:00.001+08:00

2008-05-03T22:50:00.006+08:00

"At first if you keep failing, it's not that you're incapable of succeeding; it's just that you are too capable of finding excuses for yourself..."

contd.

"...When you run out of excuses for yourself, you'll start to grow. It is easier said than done, however, but it's definitely possible if you're determined to succeed." -unknown philosopher

sad but i still have loads of excuses for myself lol. but hey i'm determined, at least.

2008-05-03T21:39:00.001+08:00

im still interested in schoolwork. i'm going to push on.

2008-05-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

woooooooooo!

2008-05-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

just now when i was with pearl and fook how at the snail garden i suddenly thought of daryl. i remembered how we saved the baby snails and prayed for the souls of the snails which were flat. sigh those were the times.

i decided to go up to collect my psp. had loads to tell him, but when i saw him, all i could do was laugh and smile. his mum was at the door too, her hair grew. i still havent forgotten the promise to treat her some raffles hotel goodies with my first paycheck.

i felt like i was visiting an ex's house to collect my belongings. he was really my bestest best friend lah. he was such a role model to me, without of which i wouldnt be who i am now.

on my way back i cried in my throat. one side of me strongly feels that i could survive without friends, and the other side misses that cheeky bastard.

2008-05-01T03:00:00.003+08:00

lol i was trying to see what was so "disturbing" about my collection of memoirs till i found a few rotten underwears HAAHAHAHAHHAHA. okay dont get the wrong idea, cuz they're new, unworn, and it was an experiment (i'll post the blog entry about it if i could find it lol). maybe i should really catalogue my memoirs so people wont get strange ideas about their origins

anyway today was crazy haha wtf haha i really dont remember most of the day because im quite high now, but it involved me breaking yeow hon's death record and embarrassing myself :( i can't sleep already la

anw boon siang's attitude is so fking hot. im jealous of his coolness. i bet he gets the chicks :O

2008-04-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

wtf is going on roflmao. my insecurities pale in comparison =/

2008-04-28T23:56:00.003+08:00

guys i think we are taking the yeow hon thing too far. we deprived him of any chance with his crush, and now we're depriving him of basic friendship. i mean it's fun to outcast him once in a while for fun, but what we are doing is destroying his life. sure his attitude is weird and he's not the most attractive person around, but he is still a guy, and he has his masculine pride.

he may act like he doesn't know what's going on to him but that's just the natural reaction of most people caught in this situation; and i know how it feels like. he's definitely not oblivious. our actions would just break him further and further and in turn cultivate him to be a pushover in the society. we're fooling around with a life and i'm sure this isn't the spirit of the class.

i don't know about you guys but i am going to make an attempt to point him in the right direction, directly or not. i cant watch a drowning person drown.

2008-04-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

wow lol power ranger red ranger guys got nice voice hahaha. but why dont have pink ranger team with hot pink rangers :(

2008-04-27T23:54:00.001+08:00

"you can be a great person if you learn to be prudent with your words"

easier said than done though

2008-04-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

let's rejuvenate the class spirit, one smile at a time starting with me :)

2008-04-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

perhaps i'm just too insensitive about the feelings of others. today i failed to consider that sometimes people aren't as open as how they seem, or how i'd like them to be.

i assumed that i could do some "bonding" (socializing) with din through the particular subject, but i failed in acknowledging the fact that i probably am just another xm or weixi or luming to him. besides, i've always been kiddish around him, so if he gets the wrong impression of my "intentions" then it's my part to blame.

i overreacted when he started asking in the conference. fook trusted me with the story, but the way din's putting it across makes it look like i'm untrustworthy of secrets, though i haven't even said or revealed anything yet (i was just probing him so he'll tell me himself). what's worse, din may stop telling fook things because i'm making fook look untrustworthy too. yeah, you get the idea

he continued asking in the conference even after i told him not to, which caught up to me. i neglected the possibility that he may not have switched back to my window to actually see my reaction to his actions. he didn't get the point so i resorted to saying nasty things, which is my bad.

i tried appeasing the situation but i was blocked. it's all cool with me now, so it's just him, so uh i'll cool him tomorrow or sth lol.

2008-04-26T20:18:00.005+08:00

hell im overspending.

anyway i went to visit jensen's grandaunt in changi hospital but i didn't expect the place to so strongly resemble a welfare home. every other patient in the ward looked like they were ready to go, and the scene was so saddening.

the worn lady in the adjacent bed kept shouting for her husband and children, but there was no one. "where is everyone? why am i here?", she uttered in dialect amidst the cries. those words were so painful it gave me butterflies in my stomach.

the look in their eyes makes me want to help them, but i know this may very well be the last time i'll see most, if not all of them. it makes me ponder the path i walk in life. will i be the helper? or will i end up joining the helpless?

2008-04-25T13:42:00.002+08:00

here are the birthday boys :D
(click for full)

2008-04-25T00:53:00.004+08:00

the roti prata was expelled orally once i reached home. it's just nasty after the 3rd mouthful. loool.

i think pearl can be a really good boyfriend LOL. seriously wtf is going on nowadays. you can have adults acting like kids, and you can have 1991s saying unbelievably matured things. i think matured people are damn attractive man. i want to mature now, hurry!

anyway i think my months-long MIA in the 2007 hols really hindered my social development lol. im soo lagging. but the environment in q804 is so surprisingly forgiving and friendly that it's almost like God's giving me a chance for social rehabilitation :O

anyway i owe pearl a lot of money. a looooooooot of money. i feel so pleasantly uncomfortable that a girl is paying hahahaha. wah okay time to sleep im high from fatigue

2008-04-24T09:35:00.003+08:00

HAHA now that fook how is out of the house, he can't posssibly read my blog to spoil it for him, so i can reveal the truth. jensen didn't take my charger, i just went down the bus to meet to discuss about the celebration. loool. now i just bastarded him by making him go to school alone because it'll be quite difficult to conceal the gifts. okay so now i'm going right down to school so wish me good luck ;)

2008-04-24T07:18:00.003+08:00

i get emotional over seriously every fucking little thing that my life is so fucking miserable

2008-04-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

(wah i must start to learn to be mature man. the line between looking like a "man" and a "small boy" is really thinner than i thought. heck im already 18 this year. time to bring my act together.)

anyway went to eat KFC with q804 after the ridiculously short school day rofl. tried fish olehhh, was nicer than i expected, especially when you dissect the burger.

afterwards went to play lan with them, and got pwned as usual in dota. only a few of us came. the rest went back for lessons. haiya :(. fook was a such a noisy whiner lolol and he nearly fought with kimkoony. after like 2 rounds of being trashed by pearl and her boyfriend(s), a few had to go so we merged games with a group of kiddos. they were chao leavers so.. oh well :D:D:D:D

then after lan, fook had to go meet his cherry yum yum. i figured i can take the same bus as him. but wtf i realized i left my charger with jensen, so i went back to collect it and i realized that he already went back home... (LOLOLOLOLOL shh lar)

after that i forgot what happened the rest of the day. very shady right :( yar.

okay time to go sleep thx bye night <33

2008-04-22T22:02:00.001+08:00

lol i dont know if people know im kidding everytime i praise myself. think im like overdoing it a little

2008-04-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

fun sia school. the people lah, at least. gonna do maths now man. come lah nerds unite

2008-04-21T06:37:00.001+08:00

wah shit man early in the morning got sesame diarrhoea

2008-04-20T20:22:00.003+08:00

woo. fun sia today. this class sibei on seh. shit haha what's wrong with me i actually find myself looking forward to tomorrow. time to bathe and clean my laptop

2008-04-20T08:58:00.002+08:00

wow i dreamt i was sarcastic to everyone at the macs@tm 12.20pm outing (which is supposed to happen about 3 hrs from now lol). then jensen whipped out his laptop and whipped my ass or something like that. everyone chased me away. lolol weird dream.

anyway it's SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. really fungry man, faster 12.20 faster 12.20 i want to eattt! nom nom nom~...

cuma cuma kiss kiss! cuma cuma kiss kiss! cuma cuma kiss kiss kisss! cuma cuma kiss kiss kisss!

2008-04-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

cool im such a computer nerd that i find that i actually like digital fundamentals. circuit analysis is quite boring but it's not as bad as shit like POA and history. here's some shit i learnt today (and i'll type from memory so i'll feel like i learnt something rofl):

binary is a radix/base-2 number system, as compared to the base-10 decimal.

for decimal, we count from 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15.

in binary, we count 0, 1, 10, 11, 100, 101, 110, 111, 1000, 1001, 1010, 1011, 1100, 1101, 1110, 1111

binary is calculated starting from the LSB which represents 1. the subsequent bits are powers of 2. for example, in 10 digit binary 1010100101, the places from left to right represents 512, 256, 128, 64, 32, 16, 8, 4, 2, 1

so to convert 1010100101 into decimal, simply:
(1x512) + 0 + (1x128) + 0 + (1x32) + 0 + 0 + (1x4) + 0 + (1x1) = 677

digital waves come in HIGH and LOW voltage states, representing 1 and 0 respectively.

pulse width is the width of each chunk of HIGH.

time period is the time it takes from the start of a pulse width to the start of the next pulse width

frequency is the reciprocal of time period. f = 1/T

duty cycle is is the pulse width as a percentage of the time period. duty cycle = pulse width / time period * 100%

NOT gates turn a 1 into a 0, and a 0 into a 1
AND gates returns 1 if all inputs are 1, and 0 for any other combinations
NAND gates return 0 if all inputs are 1, and 1 for any other combinations
OR gates return 1 if any input is 1, and 0 if all inputs are 0
NOR gates return 0 if any input is 1, and 1 if all inputs are 0
XOR gates return 0 if all inputs are the same, and 1 if inputs are different
XNOR gates return 1 if all inputs are the same, and 0 if inputs are different

resistors usually have 4 bands. band 1 is for first digit of resistance amount, band 2 is for second digit of resistors amount, band 3 is for the number of zeroes behind the first 2 resistors amount, band 4 is the tolerance.

for example, a white, gray, violet, gold resistor has a resistance of 980000000 ohms and 5% tolerance

the rest of the stuff were from sec 3 physics lol. but then again that's just the "easy" part of poly.

i'm damn on form today, and probably will be damn on through the first month and the second, but after that i have a feeling i'll just start getting bored and it all happens again. oh well i'll just study as much as possible while this lasts.

2008-04-19T00:24:00.002+08:00

i made a promise to my mum to get into university. i know it's hard and i hate going to far locations, especially when you have to wake up early in the morning, and i know the foreign talents are making places scarce, but i have to do it. if it's not for myself, then it's for my mum, my mum's boss (who sponsored my laptop and my education), and for making all my cousins look bad.

the taxi driver just told me to study like fuck when i have the chance and that's what im gonna do. this morning in the bus i started with the binary system, and later im going to continue through the first chapter and on to the next books. im gonna complete syllabuses before they even start. ownage

this is my chance man, i can't skip school anymore. i cant afford anymore suspensions. i need my "clear pass". i need my cca blingblings. i need my merits. i need my kids and wife to be happy, fucking happy. time to bathe and go wikipedia

edit: anyway i didn't say how much fun "dancing" (or jumping around) is. i hate physical things like sports, but i never knew messing around in the "disco" could bring so much shit off my mind. my hair was like fuck, my ulcers were like fuck, my mood was like fuck, but after the thing.. WOOO HAHA I FEEL SO YOUNG. im gonna watch more MTVs and learn from there like pearl did haha. then im gonna learn break dancing, somersaults and shit. hell im an attention whore and im gonna be popular yay. ok go bathe and study time

2008-04-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

fucking angry today. or rather, fucking sad lol. (vulgarities cool sia). i havent closed my mouth for the entire day because i got attacked by like half a dozen ulcers. below my tongue, behind my lips, right in between the point where the top and bottom half of my jaws meet (which is literally impossible to bite so i dont know how it got there) and so on. what's weird: it happened overnight

couldn't eat shit. i only had 4 spoonfuls of nasi bryani (however you spell that) and a stick of pocky (which hurt my mouth like ROFLMAOZEDONG. yum yum :D)

anyway played o2jam in the canteen (short circuit) and i thought i was FUCKING PRO LAH HAHA. then i told janson that i could complete earth quake hx4 (which i normally could. yar i completed it the first try in the morning before i went to school, strangely). when i got back to class i died fucking thrice on earth quake hx4. off form like hell and my ego got so fucking hurt :( i let luqmanz play half-life 2.

then SIAO HORN said i got no life :'( shit. i got no life. combine it with the embarrassment of looking like a fool dying on earth quake hx4 THRICE IN A FUCKING ROW and it's so fucking turning off. thx thx. :(

had to hold my jaws throughout the day and it's so stupid looking. what's worse there's an irritating bump on the left of my "moustache". then i realized my hair is damn wrong. argh i can just whine the whole fucking day because im such a hot chick lar ARGH.

anyway i want some HL's milk... HAHA. okay it's a chim joke please take some time to decipher it.. okay dont even bother HAHAHAHA

2008-04-16T23:32:00.002+08:00

[this post makes no sense. do not read/understand it]

i feel so hot today i didn't even bother looking at my hair when i got home HAHA.

tomorrow im going to bring my laptop to show some no-life o2jamming so it's cool. im an attention whore. but then again everyone's gonna play dota =/

there's one uber nerd guy i saw in my class who is freaking nice and friendly. he's some janson or jenson. i can say that that's the first first ever friendly bastard guy in my class. fucking friendly lah. friendly and nice lah. fuck lah. vulgarities cool sia.. HAHA sorry internal joke :(

but he's (janson's) really really nice lol. it seems the rest of them sound like they have something sinister hiding behind their angelic faces. but janson is so pure and innocent (SOUNDS WRONG BUT HAHA NOT FUNNY :().

then there's this hot girl dancer person who was forfeited to act as a sexy sway fish... LOL. i mostly kept quiet till they talked about games or computer (which was a once in a bluemoon event). then this kimchi cocoon guy (jk :() told me that cabal is "care-bell" and when i told him it was "kha-bahl" he said it was wrong. well, let's seeeee.... :D

cabal
[kuh-bal]
(kə-bäl')

pronunciation key
ä: father

so is father pronounced as "fell-ther" or "fah-ther". dont even try fighting pronunciation with me lar you will definitely lose you stupid piece of shit :(... im just kidding

i have to type jk or just kidding at the back of every insult now so that i can make it look like i dont really mean it... just kidding

anyway i didn't talk much today. i found that talking less gets me further rofl. not that i like to talk anyway. but i think my constant "angry face" is scaring people hahaha.

oh yar my throat bled. scary shit. we were doing the engine OEI thing when i had a hiccup during one of the OEI replies. somehow i heard BLAPBLAPBLAP coming out of my throat and i had saliva blood all over my pants wtf lol. i looked like i had period or sth rofl. wonder if im going to tear my throat monthly in this school.

then we had long johns and my throat was constantly being scraped to hell. i had spasms from the pain in my throat HAHA but no one saw it hopefully. i just acted like it's an itch or something. i took it like a man.. HAHA YAR YAR VERY GAY THX GO TO HELL LA :D. then i had to buy drinks after the long johns because my throat was sad, very sad :( poor throat let me sayang you pls *sayang*

anyway i think it's cool and romantic to dance, dont you think so too lol. the problem is, i cant rofl

okay anyway i've decided to type this below every single post, and everyday a different revised version, probably till it's fully stuck in my head:
1) your dad's a paperclip
2) your mum's a spider
3) study like fuck please
4) games and girls are second to books. i love books, let's read
5) get into computing. do computer science. let my kids have a bright future.

if i fuck my life ill be causing my future generations to suffer. it's not only my son or daughter or their children, it's hundreds of lives after mine. it seems my family line has never been anywhere near "rich". it's a vicious cycle. let me be the one to break it. let me be the one to let them taste luxury. fuck la im so emo now :(

ok it's 12:31 i need to wake up at 5:30 to play o2jam and bathe and reach school at 8 so i better hurry and bathe and sleep. YEO AH YEO AH YEO~ (cartoon dance la :()

2008-04-15T19:29:00.006+08:00

maybe i should start blogging like normal people and leave the insults in a new blog so that people i curse will not read what i say about them.

but then again maybe not.

i know their parents have been trying all their life to keep it from them but they deserve to know how much a bunch of dumbfucks they truly are :D

2008-04-15T18:47:00.003+08:00

btw that girl is the one wearing the blue shirt with sth abt "MILK" at the back, with a huge number 3. HAHA im such a stalker. anyway djmax is fucking fun on laptop keyboard. i just hope it's fixable if it gets hairy

2008-04-15T15:28:00.002+08:00

firstly i'd like to announce that i managed to dance with the hottest chick in computer engineering for about 40 minutes straight rofl. out of which 25 minutes has got to do with holding hands, hugging, swinging and being lovely ahahah :$. then i'd like to say that i didn't get her name wtf HAHA. soo not funny please :D. anyway im pretty sure that she'll be in my class woohoo. so maybe some basic pickup line will do

secondly i'd like to say the camp was a blast, save for two morons. both posers, one nerdy and one action bebeh. i thought they were nice people at first but after they tried talking to me in chinese, and attempt to add "cool" vulgarities into end of certain "cool" sentences, i decided to hang with the muhds. the malays and indian seniors in the school are just so fucking amazing, seriously. i must say they are the funniest, most easy going people i've met yet.

the camp food sucked horribly but the bathing experience there was just phenomenal wtf. the water pressure is so comfortably high, and there's heater and there's DOOR. i-fucking-magine it

engine are you ready~??!? *EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

BUSINESS WILL COUNT THE WALL, BUSINESS WILL COUNT THE WALL. DESIGN WILL PAINT THE WALL, DESIGN WILL PAINT THE WALL.

2008-04-12T19:29:00.005+08:00

this is cartoon network's friday premiere logo

but is it just me or does it seem like the designer plays djmax portable too (click the link rofl)

btw i like this guy's english. it's a pain to read most reviews but this one just keeps you going. and my soulstorm dvd is coming in 1 hour i cant wait (edit: damn the soulstorm delivery guy called me from bukit timah and told me the delivery truck ran out of gas and is now running on solar power (duno how, cuz it's at night) so it will be slower. he estimates he'll be here in another 1 hour. wtf :()

2008-04-11T16:47:00.005+08:00

shit i wonder what i will tell people in poly if they asked why i took vostro 1400 instead of inspiron 1420

1) the 1420 free 8400mgs 180gddr3 promo came a day after i ordered vostro. lazy to cancel and reorder

2) there is a reason why vostro 1400 is more popular on notebookreview.com than inspiron 1420

3) vostro comes with free laptop bag (that im never gonna use)

4) i have a maxed out vostro (maxed out in the ordering screen), and i like the feeling of maxed out. you have an uncustomized inspiron

5) vostro looks more mature and professional. i'll probably even be able to bring it into my business next time

6) vostro 1400 has bad thermal design and overheats easily when gaming. this would help me better concentrate on work

7) 1400 is a nicer number than 1420?

fuck la lol i'll just get garskin to make me feel better

2008-04-11T16:28:00.004+08:00

today i checked the dell website and realized the inspiron 1420 (vostro 1400's clone with color job) costs $5 less than my vostro 1400 deal with the same specs. i could have gotten a pink shit instead of this black shit :( i feel like screaming :(

2008-04-10T17:44:00.003+08:00

wtf i can run f.e.a.r. on my laptop with maximum settings at 1024x640 (the famous "compromise resolution"). even my desktop had trouble with it =/ okay so it's not that bad after all. i'm actually starting to like this thing. maybe i just need a mouse now

actually come to think of it, it's like for the period of x1950pro and athlon x2, amd/ati was pwning intel and nvidia. then suddenly they lagged behind after that and now they're probably having trouble getting their share of the market. i hope they dont die, or else we'll have to prepare for monopoly :(

2008-04-10T12:35:00.004+08:00

okay it's not that the system sucks or what, but lol i guess im just used to the desktop

people kept praising the truelife wxga+ monitor but i dont really see what's so great about it. you read through forums and you get things like "i thought it would suck but in the end WOAH STUNNING" but that isn't really what im seeing here. the contrast ratio is bullshit. the screen is reflective. serious backlight leaking. viewing angle is like 10 degrees? seriously even an entry level $200 monitor can beat this. i expected the screen to be sharper because it's the same res as my desktop monitor packed into a smaller frame but it isnt really the case lol.

secondly the touchpad is weird compared to other laptop brands. i dont know maybe im just too rough or something but i kept misclicking. i decided to turn off "tap click" so it wont click or drag for no reason. im using the two buttons to click now.

then comes the OCD part. the laptop surface is matte but it GETS SERIOUS FINGERPRINT STAINS!! wtf. the stains are even worse than most glossy surfaces, because you can't just wipe it off with a cloth. it's like your fingerprints are stuck in the micromountains in the surface.

the lines and crevices of the laptop are stylish but it traps serious dust. the second day and it's already dusty. shit i cant imagine how im gonna clean those. the whole laptop is lined with them :(

the worst part of the laptop is the speakers. there's 2 holes for sound, BUT DELL DECIDED TO CREATE A WHOLE STRETCH OF MESH ACROSS THE BOTTOM OF THE LCD WTF. not the large mesh you usually find on computer casings - im talking about the 0.5mm mesh that turns grey after a few months rofl

but other than that, though im already using low-profile keys for my desktop, the keyboard needs to get some using to. the keys go down so far that my nails kept getting trapped below the key above it. but it gives a pretty nice feeling to type on (im typing on it now rofl)

enough of the whining, im gonna try call of duty 4 and before i continue cursing

edit: hell no, 20fps on low everything @ native resolution. sun of a beach :( give me a desktop anytime man, i doubt i'll be able to do any sort of 3d modelling pleasantly on this laptop LOL. shit i thought a mouse was unnecessary but sigh..

2008-04-10T03:21:00.000+08:00

okay actually i need some sleep lol when i wake up i got some nasty stuff to say :(

2008-04-10T01:56:00.002+08:00

the laptop is here and i'm just about done setting it up

first of all i cannot lie, so i must say the laptop really sucks horribly

i'm going to fiddle with the internals and comment more about it

2008-04-08T20:48:00.003+08:00

that shithole of a forum is such a hostile place. you see people flaming each other for no apparent reason all the damn time. the amount of people trying to prove their stupidity is just dumbfounding. sometimes the forum should go fuck itself to hell. (btw no one just flamed me lol it's just irritating)

2008-04-08T12:04:00.003+08:00

my room is so cool right?

there's a secret portal behind the boxes. psst psst. that's where i go every night when everyone's asleep

2008-04-08T11:43:00.001+08:00

saw belle in bus today. hot(ter) rofl. i was carrying a fan, 500 pieces of double A paper and a 4 extension plug, to add more fire hazards to my room

2008-04-07T14:04:00.002+08:00

2008-04-07T00:11:00.004+08:00

when my laptop comes, i'll get a few accessories and they'll probably last till the end of poly
1) lide25 $118
2) razer proclick $55
3) razer propad $40+?
4) coolermaster notepal S $40+?

come to think of it, it's quite expensive. i probably dont need the scanner so early, and i can live on the touchpad. table fan for cooling. $20? :D

2008-04-05T22:59:00.004+08:00

lol if there's a fire hazard in my house it's got to be the socket in my room

1 wall socket
- 5 plug extension
--4 plug extension
---480w pc
---4 plug extension
----linksys router
----ratio
----modem
---4 plug extension
----speaker
----monitor
----i duno wtf plug is that 2 pin thing
--printer
--psp charger
--acryan external hdd

now that's a fire hazard.

ps: wow a printer, is that new? :O

2008-04-04T14:30:00.004+08:00

if you like shitty deals you can get laptops from hp. wtf the online prices are so not worth it. the laptops look very pretty but a 1.8k configuration with no graphics card is a giant piece of brick.

edit: okay the IT fair prices for HP is off the hook wtf? a dv6700 scambook for $2900 online price is just $1800 in poly fairs. almost all polys got the same offers so if you want a mid-end gaming laptop that plays everything at high except crisis, just get dv6700. it's damn pretty anyway, and it's asskicking at $1800

edit2: okay fuck hp. i realized vostro 1400 can reach dell's config at $1720 rofl, with better screen and better wifi. dell for the win

2008-04-04T04:47:00.005+08:00

i ordered 1400x900 on my 14.1" screen. i dont know if that's gonna make or break its gaming capabilities.

i can probably turn off anti-aliasing and anisotropic filtering since the pixels are so fine i won't notice the aliasing anyway

but then again i dont know if 1280x800 high will look better than 1440x900 medium/high. gah. it seems crysis is playable on 720x450 and F.E.A.R runs better on it than on my desktop rofl so it's good enough

2008-04-04T04:30:00.003+08:00

i ordered vostro 1400 but somehow i think im gonna regret. inspiron 1420 can have the exact same specs with the pink paintjob i want, but at the price of an additional $30. i dont know if i want to cancel the order or sth rofl

aiyah nevermind lar it's good enough. i can go watercolor my vostro1400 and they probably look the same and probably would whore me more attention than dell's paintjob

2008-04-03T18:50:00.002+08:00

i really cant sleep lol

i just went to my bank account and looked and... WTF?

this is the largest amount of money i have ever had in my bank, or any of my bank accounts, and this is probably the largest amount of money i am going to spend in a single purchase, or actually, this is the largest amount of money i am gonna spend within a month since i was born wtf. and even if you tally up the totals of each year i doubt it will even come close

it's a hair-raising experience rofl. but suddenly it's quite depressing to look at the amount. if i worked in mcdonalds it would take me 485 freaking hours to rake that up. that's a whole load of pain. that's 60 days of nonstop 8 hour shifts. is this how i want to spend this money? even if i don't work, it would take me 7 months to save it up. 7 months of enduring the pain of not drawing money from my bank wtf?

hell if i buy this laptop i MUST get into university AT LEAST. i'm gonna study like mad, like really mad. i will turn hardwork into a game i can and will enjoy. wtf NTU: watch out

2008-04-03T17:58:00.005+08:00

i had a nightmare and i woke up and something told me to go look at vostro 1400 so i did

and i found this:

for the same cost as inspiron 1525 i can get a discrete graphics laptop roflmao and it beats the acer to bits

here's the specs:
Intel C2D 7250 (2.0GHz, 800FSB, 2MB Cache)
14.1" Widescreen 1440x900 Display
2 X 1GB 667MHz DDR2 RAMs
GeForce 8400M GS 128MB GDDR3

smaller screen, low-end graphics card, and same specs for everything else. i've given in to the devil for the price of pink color scheme which would get me considerable attention because im a whore :(

edit: i really want the pink laptop but everyone's voting for the black :( maybe a simple paintjob or skinjob can do the trick (yar lar blowjob lar very funny). i have a serious feeling that i will be regretting my ass off when i find out that i may actually need the HDMI port that the vostro1400 lacks but oh well. after tweaking around i found that i actually like dell's laptop prices lol. then again why am i getting the 8400m gs when i'm not even planning to play any kind of games on the laptop? okay i dont care now, i'll just wait till it's too late then realize it

i really need to get some sleep wtf bye

2008-04-03T15:47:00.003+08:00

okay la after reading for 3 useless hours i've decided to just go with x3100. the driver sucks but it does have potential. besides, 2400xt is gonna HALVE my battery life. how fun is it playing half-life2 for 1 hour and 15 mins. that's right, not very fun :(. i can probably go with a low 16:10 resolution with good framerates for most games and i'll be satisfied. to hell with acer :D

okay seriously i need to sleep now

2008-04-03T13:27:00.003+08:00

okay actually the laptop comes with a 2400XT which is as good as shit (7300LE) if we were to game. why would i want to play anything heavy on my laptop when, by that time, i'll have a computer equipped with 9600gt? :D

let's see who sucks more:

the acer's design sucks, connectivity sucks, port placements sucks, color choices sucks (no pink), paint job sucks (piano black, gloss, fucking fingerprints), screen size sucks, screen material (gloss) sucks, resolution sucks, battery life sucks and reviews suck.

dell's processor sucks by 200mhz, ram sucks by 1gb, harddisk sucks by 90gb, x3100 sucks more than sucky 2400xt

fucking mosquito sucking me now i'll get out of my room and continue this later

2008-04-03T12:40:00.003+08:00

what the fuck this is unbelievable. look at the lower left specs for aspire 4920G-603G25Mn and the cost wtf?

every single fucking thing is better than the hp one i looked at (except the monitor), and it's cheaper by $20.

2008-04-03T11:17:00.004+08:00

okay la after reading (through) this, the x3100 integrated graphics is actually not that bad for my purpose (according to the replies at the back). probably gona order later :D

the most i can play halflife 2 at low everything. uh i mean, render 3dsmax models.

2008-04-03T06:45:00.002+08:00

900th post ever yay

anyway let's think of what i'm gonna do to my system when it comes:
1) reformat and do a clean install of home premium without dell shit bloatwares
2) install basic drivers and windows update the system to hell
3) install essentials: tuneup, winrar, msn, firefox, flashget, flashgot, klcp, vlite, utorrent
4) install isoware: nero 8, clonecd, clonedvd, alchohol 120%, poweriso, daemontools, super encoder
5) install standard productivity softwares: openoffice, photoshop cs3, dreamweaver cs3, autodesk 3dsmax 9, audacity, bloodshed dev c++
6) fix services and startup
7) defrag and leave overnight for first torrent run...

optional: install o2jam... ROFL

yay :D

anyway dell is suddenly not bad. the desktop offers are still shitty as ever but laptop wise they beat all other retailers in terms of specs-to-cost for their budget line. perhaps the laptop offers are still shitty compared to sls diy but i dont think i want to diy a laptop lol. i dont know how dell's gaming laptops fare against the rest but i'd take asus laptops if im gona do anything along the lines of gaming.